I broke us up, but I want to work it out

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Registered: 08-07-2003
I broke us up, but I want to work it out
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Tue, 09-21-2004 - 3:16pm
Almost 2 month ago I ended my relationship with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 yrs. I am 24 and I got lost in all my friends getting married, having kids and starting their lives. When my boyfriend whom I lived with showed no interest in any of those things until WWWAAAAYYY in the future I got upset and decided that we should go separate ways. Within two weeks he packed up and moved 40 mins away and I stayed where I was. At first I tried to remain friends with him, but he finally told me he didn't want to talk to me or see me that it was too difficult for him. Weeks have gone by and I have dated a few people. I can't believe what strange and perverted men are out there!!! I have met some nice guys, but they didn't have long term potential. I've realized what a wonderful person my ex really was and how I lucky I was that we had a normal loving relationship. I've never stopped loving him. In the past week I miss him miserably. I miss his laugh, I miss the way he threw his leg over mine as we slept, I miss the way he smelled, I miss cuddling with him on the couch, I miss seeing him when he first came home, I miss just laying next to him. I miss everything about him. Then yesterday I finally heard from him. He was calling to let me know that the title to his car was about to be changed from my name to his name. We talked for about 30 mins. just catching up on each others lives. He had me laughing hysterically and he said, "I'm glad we are friends so I can get all this inside information." I'm glad he is letting his guard down to be my friend finally, but now I know I want to work it out. He sure isn't acting like he wants us to get back together, he is just acting friendly. I don't know what to do.

I've asked myself do I really miss him or just having someone, but I miss every detail about him and him alone. What am I going to do??? Especially since in the beginning discussing to work things out he said, "Nope don't do this to me, I don't want to talk about it." After 2 mos you'd think I'd be ok especially since I'm the one who did this. Any advice???

April

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Registered: 08-04-2003
Wed, 09-22-2004 - 3:22pm
You will never know until you talk to him, but I gotta say, it's odd that when you had him, it wasn't enough for you.... think about it.


Carrie