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| Sun, 11-04-2007 - 1:22am |
I am a college student and this past summer May 07' I got in a relationship thinking it would work I cheated on this guy twice over the summer. We were in two different states. I was in SC he was in CT. I told him and he was heart broken so we broke it off. We do attend the same school so fall 07' comes and we werent really on good terms. I took it upon myself to get things right with him since it seemed to be a little bit harder to do from a distance.
I told him that I wanted to get back with him and he said i was putting him in a hard position because he then at the time had mixed feelings for me. But at the same time he never really came out and said that he wanted me out of his life for good. We did continue to have sex once we got back to school and spent massive amount of time together which we still do.
His friends and my friends still continue to ask me and him what is up between us and will we ever get back together. I cannot

It sounds as though your relationship is built on sex. Ironically it also ended because of sex.
I think you should give yourself higher standards as far as who you sleep with. For instance, how about making sure you're in a committed relationship before sleeping with someone?
I'm not saying sex is bad, but in your case I think it's confusing your emotions and the guy you're sort-of-not-with. If you want the best possible outcome for this situation, you'll leave him for good. You can't undo all the cheating you've done on one another, and at some point a relationship becomes so ruined by bad behavior that there's too much fixing to come back to. I could maybe understand if you were married but really this is still a new relationship. I think you both deserve better than what you've been getting from, and giving to, one another. Make a resolution to yourself to never cheat on ANYONE again, and save sex until you know where you stand in a relationship with a man. Save these ideas for the next guy you date.
Welcome to the board b_holiday,
It does sound like your relationship is based on sex.