I said some mean things
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I said some mean things
| Wed, 03-21-2007 - 10:41pm |
My bf and I have been not speaking properly to each other for 4 days now. Last night, I called him to try to resolve this. I wanted to hear he still loved me, that he considered the fight over, to say sorry for the spiteful things he did. He didn't tell me what I wanted to hear. He had walls put up, was very unemotional on the phone. So I got mad, and said very venemous things like, "Now I know why your ex cheated on you." and "I'm going to take your car away and screw you over for work tomorrow." I said them because I was hot with anger, I couldn't control myself once I got angry.
This happens too often. Once my anger builds up, it explodes! Afterwards, I'm very sorry and regretful. My bf has forgiven me many times before, but now I've said very, very hurtful things and all I can do is wait for him to call me. Which is completely agonizing. I'm keeping myself busy as best I can, but I'm really depressed and all I do is cry, sleep, and not eat.
I wish I could control my anger better, and not take it out on him. I think I'm in the doghouse now. All I can do is wait for him to forgive me... if he ever does.
This happens too often. Once my anger builds up, it explodes! Afterwards, I'm very sorry and regretful. My bf has forgiven me many times before, but now I've said very, very hurtful things and all I can do is wait for him to call me. Which is completely agonizing. I'm keeping myself busy as best I can, but I'm really depressed and all I do is cry, sleep, and not eat.
I wish I could control my anger better, and not take it out on him. I think I'm in the doghouse now. All I can do is wait for him to forgive me... if he ever does.

Hi princess_twenty,
Please consider getting into counseling and taking anger management, it can really help.