i'm scared - what do i do
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i'm scared - what do i do
| Mon, 03-22-2004 - 2:15pm |
I've been married for 4 years now and have been physically and verbally abused the whole time. I have 3 children and get put down because of it (2 are from previous relationship). I'm a b---- and a whore, etc. 6 months ago he confessed he cheated on me...it had been a week since the incident....it continued for 4 months, i filed for divorce he did anything and everything to me, kicked, punched, choked, i'm suprised to still be here. I left him for good and hid from him but of course he got to me begged and i did notice a change but its been a month and a half since we've been back together and he's back to his abusive self again.
Last night he made me sleep on the floor because he was hot. I'm tired of feeling like nothing, worthless yet i don't have the courage to leave....where can i find that? anyone?
At work i feel very smart and confident, but once i go home i feel like i put the "jack-ass" hat on - I'm nobody, i have no say so, he can discipline the kids because "they never listen to me" I need the courage i had about 2 months ago when i completely avoided him.
if nothing at all, i just need someone to talk to who won't say "its all your fault for staying with him"
D

Did you know that you only have to hear 1 negative thing 7 times before you start to believe it? You have to matter to you. You have to value you. You have to find your self-esteem, your inner strenght and stand up for yourself. No one can save you but you.
This man is your children's role model for being a father and being a husband. Would you want either of your daughters to be in a relationship with a man like him? Would you want your son to behave like your husband?
Call 1-800-977-SAFE and look into a shelter, as well as a number in your area so you can get together with a good support group-and most have children facilities and counseling for children too.
Please take back your power and do what you know is right for you and your children. You have to push through that fear.
Carrie
It's not your fault, and don't believe anyone that tells you that!!! You will find the courage you need inside of you, it's there you just have to be ready to find it. You really have to believe that it's not you causing these problems and it's not your fault for staying with him.
In Florida you can dial 211 and they direct you to help. I am not sure if this is all over. Look in the front of the phone book. Remember you have 3 children that need a positive parent in thier life.
You have a choice as an adult. They do not. They are depending on you to provide a safe house for them.
What are you teaching them about love, respect, self-esteem, treating others, how to be treated and choose friends, etc. YOu are their role model. Be a positive one!