Lonely in my marriage...
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| Thu, 03-04-2004 - 11:10pm |
Now, the difficult part... about 8 months ago I hired someone to do some work for my company and although we never met in person, we developed a great friendship via phone and email, etc. I had not given him a second thought since I have many male friends. Finally, we decided to meet for lunch and finally put the face with the voice. That day completely changed my world, for when he walked into the room, I felt like I had been hit with a lightening bolt. We took one look at each other and it was like our chemisty felt right. He proceeded to trip over his words, and I managed to trip walking out the door. It was like being back in High School again, I felt so foolish. Needless to say, lunch was a giggling, lovey dovey eye filled mess with both of us being ridiculously shy. It was a completely overwhelming experience. I went home that day wondering what happened and it's been two months since...we continue to chat on a regular basis and we still feel the same about each other. We still have a great friendship and have agreed to not take it further b/c of my marriage and the fact that I will not cheat on my husband. I am now even more unhappy than ever before in my marriage which is slowly going bad. I want to feel that love that I feel with this new man and it seems impossible at this point. We are going to a marriage counselor for the first time tomorrow b/c it's obvious I'm not fulfilled in my marriage. Although I've only seen the new man 5 times, I feel closer to him than to my husband who feels more like a roommate and business partner!
What do I do? Has anyone had this experience before? Any advice would help as I feel like I'm in my own hell...

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She commented that it was interesting how when he described why he wanted to be with me, the comments revolved mostly around my talent (I'm in a creative field), my looks, and my sense of humor. Apparently, I matched those qualities when he met me and after just speaking for 30 minutes when we first met, he decided that "that's the kind of woman I need to marry". I used to think that was really romantic, but now I'm wondering if it was more like a goal for him. And he is definitely goal driven in everything he does.
Just an interesting thought...
I certainly don't have any money or family inheritance to speak of so I'm hoping the counselor can help us get to the bottom of his motivations in the relationship. Thanks for the input.
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