Maybe it's just my own insecurity?
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|Fri, 05-03-2013 - 2:12am|
My bf and I have been together for almost 3 years and we are in our late 20s (well both of us are turning 30 in a few months). I think overall the relationship is great. We have pretty good communication, we have a lot in common, our friends get along with each other that we are able to hang out as a group. But i feel like the affection is just not the same as before. Well there are still days when we are just as affectionate but there are also days when we act like old married couples. Sometimes I'm ok with that but sometimes I feel neglected and I miss the random kisses he used to give me. I used to have bad mood swings where I'd just feel really depressed and crave comfort and affection from him and when i don't get it i just get worse. Sometimes for hours I couldn't bring myself to smile. Usually he doesn't know what to do or gets annoyed that I would be upset for no particular reason. And to be honest if the roles were reversed I probably would be too. And it really just become a downward spiral that pulls us further apart. So I have been trying to drag myself out of the mood or try to not get too sucked in into it. He even said many times my mood swings and my refusal to snap out of it would be something that would make him break up with me. I know I sound like a huge brat, but when I don't get enough attention from him, I get moody or kinda mad (for ex he's only seem me once this week after he's hung out w his friend, and he hung out w him again tonight), and he hasn't really want to talk on the phone for long coz he says he's trying to clean, which I get on him about, along with working out more. So I feel like I have no right to complain since he's trying to do what I want him to do. At the same time I want him to want to spend time with me. It makes me wonder if he's bored/tired of me and doesn't want to spend time with me. You can just imagine what else my mind wanders to. As I'm typing this out I realize more and more how ridiculous it sounds. I DON'T want to feel this way and I don't want to be a needy jealous girlfriend. I feel like I used to be much "cooler" of a gf and I still can be when I'm in a good mood. But I find myself wondering more and more about where this is going, if its going well? Is it because I'm getting older and want to make sure I'm on the right path towards building a family? I'm not in a hurry to get married or anything but I want to be on that path, and I'm not sure if he is? Maybe I'm thinking too much but it feels good to at least get this off my chest.