Why stay in this marriage if you aren't remotely happy, he is verbally abusive, and you doubt your love for him?
I think you would benefit greatly from some individual counseling. The fact is you CAN make it on your own and in fact you would probably be happier than you are now.
Being in an abusive relationship is dangerous for your health, productivity and self esteem. Verbal abuse is abuse - and it sounds as though you are also being deprived of the warmth and loving regard you crave - another form of abuse. Clearly, you need professional help now as it sounds as though things have gotten much worse and you are having some trouble functioning. This is not a situation you can handle on your own. Get to a good, well trained therapist and start to work through these complicated feelings. Your husband's relationship (and behavior) with your mother is part of this as well, and sounds frightening. Clearly, intervention is needed here. If you feel terrible about yourself, alone and so lonely, this will only get worse if you do not get the help you need and support in not only being clear but also making new, healthy choices for yourself.
Welcome to the board trooper76,
Why stay in this marriage if you aren't remotely happy, he is verbally abusive, and you doubt your love for him?
I think you would benefit greatly from some individual counseling. The fact is you CAN make it on your own and in fact you would probably be happier than you are now.
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Being in an abusive relationship is dangerous for your health, productivity and self esteem. Verbal abuse is abuse - and it sounds as though you are also being deprived of the warmth and loving regard you crave - another form of abuse. Clearly, you need professional help now as it sounds as though things have gotten much worse and you are having some trouble functioning. This is not a situation you can handle on your own. Get to a good, well trained therapist and start to work through these complicated feelings. Your husband's relationship (and behavior) with your mother is part of this as well, and sounds frightening. Clearly, intervention is needed here. If you feel terrible about yourself, alone and so lonely, this will only get worse if you do not get the help you need and support in not only being clear but also making new, healthy choices for yourself.
Best wishes,
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