NEED ADVICE-ASAP-No Trust

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Registered: 01-25-2004
NEED ADVICE-ASAP-No Trust
Sun, 01-25-2004 - 1:59am
This year will make 6 years that I have been with my boyfriend but I lack trust for him. About 2 years ago he cheated on me a few times. For the record im 19 and my boyfriend is 21. He cheated on me durning his freshman and sophmore year of college. He has stopped all his foul ways but I still cannot trust him and its breaking our relationship apart. I find myself constantly going through his stuff and asking him 21 questions. I dont want to continue to lie like this!! Recently I went through his cell phone and I seen a missed call from one of the girls he had previously cheated on me with. Her number was not stored and when confronted he said she only calk to wish him a happy new year. Well I blew everything out of proportion and his story turned out to be true. I told him I would no longer accuse him and check his stuff but I found myself doing it again. He's probably very close to telling me he is through with me because he says I need to forget about it. I try to but I just cant. I knwo it was so long ago but it happened and it was not just once. I love him a lot and we have planned out the rest of our life together but I just dont know how to stop checking his stuff or asking him so many questions because I cant help feeling the way I do. Can someone pleae give me some advice.