pity party for one please...ugh!
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|Tue, 12-17-2013 - 10:09pm|
I need a moment to get this off my chest. I am married, one child, we do not want anymore and have been together 11 years. Recently it was my birthday, a big one at that. He has never been one to celebrate and I am ok with this but was hopeful this year I wouldn't be buying my own cake. Maybe I thought too much into it being hopeful. The day comes, he leaves me a note on the table saying happy birthday and he loves me and leaves for work. Our child wishes me a happy birthday as well and goes to school. None of my coworkers realize it is my birthday, I do though receive 2 birthday calls my my fAther and in laws. I get home, hoping again for something only to find n nothing. No card, dinner, hug. Nothing. I am a bit aggravate by this and our child now can tell. After all said and done, I received a card. Nice but not what I needed. I really feel saddened by this. I realize it is a pity party and I hate being this way but am I overreacting? I do everything to keep this house rolling, work full time, do all the activities with our child, groceries,etc and I get myself a cake. Seriously, I don't know how to bring it up without sounding like a baby but I need to say something otherwise my mood will only get worse. Any ideas? I am just so angry by his lack or caring and angry he made no effort to get something from our child to me as well. I just recently had surgery which I am sure has made him a bit on edge due to no intimacy for a while but as soon as we were able to be intimate again it wasn't the same. No spark.is it bc I am angry??!! Stressed out! Like I said in the header...pity party for one.