slowly. am I woman enough to go slow
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slowly. am I woman enough to go slow
| Wed, 10-06-2004 - 5:08pm |
Second time in my life that I have fallen for a man ( I am 28 ). So I am taking my actions seriously, perhaps way more seriously than I should. He is after a long time the first person I have found that would fit into my life. and the excitiment I feel is beyond words. the excitement in fact is worth it all. it is such a beautiful feeling. so I can be happy. I can take this happiness for what it is and smile.
but
I am human too. it isnt enough. What is going to make him stop at me. I dont want to make him.. but there is that feeling that his feelings are goign to depend on my actions. and right now I am too excited to be around him. I am going to scare him away. We hve been seeing each other for a month now. He is still a free man. and I want him to remain so till HE wants to feel a part of my life. but am I going to be patient enough to enjoy the moments he gives me now to wait for the day he realizes that I make him happy. (if I do)
It is like I discovered gold. but I cant tell anyone..
I feel like I havent matured enough to be able to handle this situation. To be patient, nurturing, loving and giving... while looking at him take his time.
but I want him like that.
what a joy it is going to be when he will give me love.
but
I am human too. it isnt enough. What is going to make him stop at me. I dont want to make him.. but there is that feeling that his feelings are goign to depend on my actions. and right now I am too excited to be around him. I am going to scare him away. We hve been seeing each other for a month now. He is still a free man. and I want him to remain so till HE wants to feel a part of my life. but am I going to be patient enough to enjoy the moments he gives me now to wait for the day he realizes that I make him happy. (if I do)
It is like I discovered gold. but I cant tell anyone..
I feel like I havent matured enough to be able to handle this situation. To be patient, nurturing, loving and giving... while looking at him take his time.
but I want him like that.
what a joy it is going to be when he will give me love.
