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so sad
| Thu, 05-20-2004 - 10:03am |
I've been married to my husband for almost a year now, and I have everything I could ever want. He is the sweetest guy in the entire world, and he does everything he can possible do to make me happy. Unfortunately, I suffer from severe chronic depression, and I just don't know how to be happy. It's not that I have a bad life, I just hate life itself. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought of how sad my husband would be if I were not alive. Lately, though, I feel like he has been losing patience with my depression. In fact, I know it's a huge problem in both of our lives. I don't know what to do. Therapy hasn't worked for me, and it's way too expensive anyway, and my meds just don't seem to be making me see the bright side of life. It sucks, I don't like it, and quite frankly, I would rather not have to be alove right now, especially if my husband is starting to lose his love for me because of this. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell him things that I know are just going to hurt him(like the fact that I hate myself and life).

Enough about me,I want you to hang in there and know that it always gets better. I have been dealing with these bouts for years. They come, they knock me over for a while and then it gets better. It ALWAYS gets better and you have to remember that. Hold onto that. You will feel good again so make sure you hold on.
I was in your boat, and now I am in a similar boat, but w my dear bf with whom I live.
things could be most perfect, but I would STILL be very sad about it. it just makes things that much worse when something bad actually happens.
I completely agree that there are always other treatments-they are not all the same- I was "happy" for years on an antidepressant. I sincerely hope you find the right treatment ASAP.
cheers- it could ALWAYS be worse.
me: an example of what happens when you go off antidepressants. :(