so sad

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Registered: 01-19-2004
so sad
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Thu, 05-20-2004 - 10:03am
I've been married to my husband for almost a year now, and I have everything I could ever want. He is the sweetest guy in the entire world, and he does everything he can possible do to make me happy. Unfortunately, I suffer from severe chronic depression, and I just don't know how to be happy. It's not that I have a bad life, I just hate life itself. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought of how sad my husband would be if I were not alive. Lately, though, I feel like he has been losing patience with my depression. In fact, I know it's a huge problem in both of our lives. I don't know what to do. Therapy hasn't worked for me, and it's way too expensive anyway, and my meds just don't seem to be making me see the bright side of life. It sucks, I don't like it, and quite frankly, I would rather not have to be alove right now, especially if my husband is starting to lose his love for me because of this. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell him things that I know are just going to hurt him(like the fact that I hate myself and life).

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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: lemurbug
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 10:34am
Go back to your therapist and have your meds changed. Not all antidepressants are the same. You also need a complete psychological evaluation.
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Registered: 05-16-2004
In reply to: lemurbug
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 11:35am
I agree with what the other poster said. Both my wife and I have suffered from depression at different times. It is not the real world that is the problem for you but a chemical imbalance in your brain. Get the correct doctor and the corect meds. you can have a good life! Don't give up, get the right doctor and tell him what you need.
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Registered: 04-23-2003
In reply to: lemurbug
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 4:03pm
I am really sad to hear about your depression, I wish there was something more comforting I could say to you. I also am struggling with depression right now. My life and my relationship with my husband is great, I put on a happy face and only share minor details with my husband to keep him from worrying about me. I started back on meds alittle over a month ago but am also drinking to help ease the tension. This I am sure is making me worse.

Enough about me,I want you to hang in there and know that it always gets better. I have been dealing with these bouts for years. They come, they knock me over for a while and then it gets better. It ALWAYS gets better and you have to remember that. Hold onto that. You will feel good again so make sure you hold on.

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Registered: 05-20-2004
In reply to: lemurbug
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 10:08pm
I am SO SAD too.

I was in your boat, and now I am in a similar boat, but w my dear bf with whom I live.

things could be most perfect, but I would STILL be very sad about it. it just makes things that much worse when something bad actually happens.

I completely agree that there are always other treatments-they are not all the same- I was "happy" for years on an antidepressant. I sincerely hope you find the right treatment ASAP.

cheers- it could ALWAYS be worse.

me: an example of what happens when you go off antidepressants. :(