Still in love with my ex ....

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Registered: 01-02-2004
Still in love with my ex ....
Fri, 01-02-2004 - 11:51pm
I am an emotional wreck and I can't seem to pull myself out of it.

I desperately need some advise ... I'll try and cut a long story short.

I recently separated from my boyfriend of 2 years. When I first saw him it was love at first sight - for the both of us!! When we were together, we both said that it was the best relationship that we had ever had - we had both been married before for only a few years and never felt this way about our ex-spouses.

We were extremely attracted to each other both physically and mentally (the physical attraction was absolutely mind blowing!). We lived together for a total of 18 months out of a 2 year period and probably had only 5 arguments in that time (trivial petty discussions really).

We broke up because I found it very difficult to communicate to him what was happening in my life (I am self employed and had been going through a tough time financially - I would keep it all to myself as I thought it was my problem that I had to deal with alone). He says that he can't have an honest relationship with me now because I didn't tell him everything.

I have since met up again with my ex-boyfriend from 5 years ago (we had a 3 year relationship). We broke up mainly because I didn't think it would work as I was just a normal working girl and he is a wealthy guy ($1 million++) and I had met my recent ex-boyfriend. He married someone else (they are now separated). He says he tried to find me last year but I didn't have a phone or anything in my name so had no idea where I was.

My problem is ... I am now seeing the (weathly) guy from 5 years ago and I do have feelings for him, and yet can't stop thinking about my recent boyfriend - I am still so in love with him!! I DON'T care about the money - all I ever wanted was to meet my "Mr Right" and be happy.

I need advice on how to move on?? I can't eat, or sleep or stop thinking about what we had. My recent ex-boyfriend wont have me back because of the lack of communication on my part.