struggling thru confusion
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struggling thru confusion
| Wed, 06-16-2004 - 11:04am |
I am so confused. I am 25, married with one full time stepchild and one child with my husband. My husband doesn't abuse me, doesn't drink excessively, he works regularly, and is an "ok" daddy. I guess I love him, but on a daily basis, I struggle with leaving him. We are at each other's throats atleast 3 times a week. He gets extremely jealous and ignores me when I go out with friends (which is maybe twice a month). He denies that he is mad or jealous at the time, but he always brings it up that I didn't call or I stayed out too late. He doesn't go out with friends, but he does get out of the house several times a month.
Another thing is he can be SO needy. "I Love You" a million times a day and "Give me a kiss, hug, etc" constantly some days. I used to be lovey dovey, but now I don't want him to touch me PERIOD. We will be married 5 years in August.
Another thing is he can be SO needy. "I Love You" a million times a day and "Give me a kiss, hug, etc" constantly some days. I used to be lovey dovey, but now I don't want him to touch me PERIOD. We will be married 5 years in August.
I guess my dilemma is this, if he's not a monster, why can't I be happy with him? Also, even if I did leave, my job is not enough to support me and my 2 year old. I dream about me and my baby in our own house. I actually look in the newspaper for rental houses. I have called about a few.
I just can't understand why I'm so unhappy and I hate it. I feel guilty for complaining. My mother and father divorced after 18 yrs of marriage and my mom was so unhappy for so long. I just don't want to waste half of my life being miserable. But seems like I have no other option.
Sorry message is so chopped up and disorganized...my brain hasn't been functioning right last few years...
Anyone have any advice or been in a similar situation??
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| Wed, 06-16-2004 - 11:26am |
i know how u feel iam in a similar situation i to have been married for 3 yrs and i have a 2 yr old daughter also iam happy but sometimes i honestly feel like iam staying in my marriage for my own kid thats pretty sad but it s true iam 25 and hes 38 he has a kid from his first wife and shes 14 yrs old so yes i know its hard isnt it to be going through the same thing i feel if iam stuck too i dont even have a job right now even if i did i d be living with some roomate and well that just dosent sound good right now for me so i dont really have advice for u but if u wanna talk iam here for u
