feels soo good yet is soo bad!!
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feels soo good yet is soo bad!!
| Mon, 05-14-2007 - 12:11pm |
2 weekends ago my ex was out at a concert w/ a bunch of us and he asked his BEST friend to take me home(we'll call him S)...no big deal...but it was... It was all we could do to keep our hands off each other on the way home & we barley made it in the house b4 ripping off eachothers clothes. AMAZING!!! S is my bestfriends cousin & lives w/ her fwb so i couldnt even tell her what had appened b/c i cant let my ex find out about anything!! I thought it wass just due to drinking & thought ohh it will never happen again...well later that week he txted me a rather expilcit msg & we ended up going at it again the following weekend at her house. He came by this Saturday b/c he knew I was a little depressed as i had been in the hospital Thursday & Friday and had to cancel my plans for Sat night. He said he didn't want me sitting home all alone on a sat night & brought some movies & was as sweet as could be!!! Well you can guess what happened. It felt so good knowing that out of all of my friends he was the one who showed concern while everyone else was out having a good time & i was sitting all alone in my apt.
We have been txting eachother all morning and are supposed to have dinner w/ all the kids and my ex tonight at chuckecheese. how awkward is that!!!!
I just want to know why so many of the things in life that feel so right are so wrong. (like S in this case) or his coworker who is has been my fwb for the last year. OHH my what am i getting myself into?!?!
I think I just needed to tell someone about S b/c I cant tell anyone else.
We have been txting eachother all morning and are supposed to have dinner w/ all the kids and my ex tonight at chuckecheese. how awkward is that!!!!
I just want to know why so many of the things in life that feel so right are so wrong. (like S in this case) or his coworker who is has been my fwb for the last year. OHH my what am i getting myself into?!?!
I think I just needed to tell someone about S b/c I cant tell anyone else.

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You're banging some guy who is a friend of the guy you used to bang. And you also bang another guy. If that's your lifestyle, banging a bunch of guys with no strings attached, then why are you so worried about it?
If you had some sort of moral code which said that sex was a special thing between two mature adults and should only be done in a committed relationship, I could understand why you might be conflicted over your recent actions. But lacking any such moral code, why should you worry yourself?
In other words, don't worry about it.
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