One night stand
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| Sun, 07-16-2006 - 8:58pm |
I broke up with my boyfriend about 3 weeks ago and even though I did the breaking, I've been really depressed and missing him the whole time. We've had no contact at all since I left his house but he's really all I think about. Just feel lonely all the time.
A couple of days ago I met someone online - just needed the confidence boost - and we got along great and decided to meet for a drink. Well, one thing led to another and we ended up at his place and slept together. The whole time I was thinking I was just so glad to not be feeling lonely anymore - if even for a minute. Ha - I wasn't even drunk, so can't use that as an excuse. He wanted me to stay, but I didn't and went home afterwards and didn't really know how to feel about it. Good that my ex is not the last man to find me attractive? Gross because I just had a one night stand with some random guy? (we used protection) He texted me twice today - wanting to get together again - I know it's a sex thing - which makes me feel so cheap.
Is this something that anyone else has done? Did you feel oddly liberated and disgusting at the same time? Which emotion prevailed? I'm not really sure what to feel right now...
Thanks

No, I've never had a one night stand and don't plan on it.
You aren't the first woman who ever did this, and you won't be the last! Don't be beating yourself up over it, because it means absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things.
Whatever it did or didn't do for you, it was something you needed to do at the moment, and good for you, you're not blaming alcohol for it, you take the responsibility for what you did.
Maybe it was just the catharsis that you needed to get the ex out of your mind, and realize that there IS life out there after a breakup!
It sounds like this isn't your "normal" behavior, and you don't like what you did....great, don't do it again, but it's over and done, and now you can move on.
I agree..
Maybe this has helped you to see that you are attractive to people other than just your ex, and that's a good thing. It's nice to be noticed.
If you don't like the feelings you have about having a one night stand, don't do it anymore. Don't beat yourself up over it. You are not a horrible person.