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Dirty Dancing
| Sat, 10-04-2008 - 10:18pm |
As I train for my triathlon (and lose the rest of my baby weight), I fantasize about going dancing in a tight, curve-loving red dress with a slit up to my ass as a responsive, seductive, athletic man takes me dancing!

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Hi
The Sassy One
OH GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU GO!!!!
Photography by Cindy updated 10/03
Cindy,
THANKS!!! I see that you approve of how I'm going to make him "pay" without being "mean" to him, per-say. He's "made his own bed," as it were. This little affair I speak of is only the tip of the iceberg. (Yeah...the "fat" he was referring to came to be from having HIS baby!) My self esteem has been in the dumps for way too long. He denied me of foreplay for the first 5 years of our marriage (starting on our wedding night) saying he didn't want me "comparing" him to my previous boyfriend then told me I didn't "deserve" to feel good and that he didn't like to see me enjoy it and even threatened to rape me once we started working things out.
Thank goodness I am finally starting to "reach out" and take what I want out of life! He's now begging to be intimate with me, and I just don't feel like there was ever anything there to begin with. He recently started joking about getting his hair cut at a salon where all the girls wear bikinis, and he's still spending a lot of time on-line. You can water a lawn until the street floods and it can turn green, but if it's all weeds, it will never truly be a "lawn." He will learn that women deserve to be treated with love, respect, and adoration. I will have a body that men will want to fall to their knees and worship, and he will be left holding the "just friends" and "ex-husband" cards!
Jim,
I'm glad you "hijacked" my post. I am really enjoying what you add to this discussion. You're so right about the fact that sometimes we need something to get us angry enough to stand up for ourselves. I once heard that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
My "trigger" was the fact that the US Navy was going to kick me out for being overweight, and I was forced to make a choice to either throw away an almost 6-year career that I want to be more than 20 or do something about my weight. In the process, I gained self respect.
I also realized that there are decent men out there, and I don't have to "settle" for the life I've chosen up to this point. I had told myself the lie that I was so fat that no other man would want me anyway...but then I realized...I don't HAVE to be fat!
I can be whoever I want to be!!!
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