FFM

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Registered: 11-09-2006
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Thu, 08-21-2008 - 8:29am
Since my divorce, I've been doing all those sexual things I had to suppress for years during my marriage, things I'd discovered in adolescence or at college. Sexually, I was such a sad case while married. My husband didn't cooperate with me in anything, didn't share my sexual goals, and I became a nervous wreck. I always liked the idea of a threesome but had no idea how well it could work out when you find people who are suitable in their desires. One of my girlfriends loves to watch. She would much rather watch than participate. I'm not like that at all. I need to have some attention, even the spotlight. As for boyfriend, he is quite able "to perform," since he has great trouble coming. Most times he just doesn't. Plus, he's "big." Visually, it's a real turn on and stimulates my imagination (and his girlfriend's, too). I get so aroused seeing my friend wildly excited while I'm showing off with her boyfriend during a long bout of intercourse; the only thing is I consider myself "the weak one" because I would be unable to share a man like she does. It's a troublesome thought. I try to think that's just how people are, but still, I can't get over the idea that it's weak of me not to be able to share. I've always thought this. How should I manage this feeling?
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Registered: 11-09-2006
In reply to: sieglinde_cunegonde
Mon, 09-01-2008 - 7:41pm
I think that's a good idea--she can do it. I somehow feel it's going too far with him for me to massage his prostate. Call me superstitious. I don't want to give him that pleasure, except at the end of my strapon--that much I'll do (she loves to see it!). I have fingered the prostates of men I've gone out with. I'm not squeamish, but I'm drawing a line there with her boyfriend.
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In reply to: sieglinde_cunegonde
Mon, 09-01-2008 - 8:59pm

I understand.

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In reply to: sieglinde_cunegonde
Mon, 09-01-2008 - 9:22pm
That's right. I want to hold back something, so there's something only she does and can do with him. There's been a couple of times we did it with one other woman, too, in a foursome and she does everything with him, but I'm not going to do everything. Don't think my friend is unattractive or somehow incapable of real sex. She certainly is. She has a wonderfully happy personality. I think she's better looking than I am, but she just gets aroused by watching me with others.
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