Had Foursome - Feel SO Dirty Now! Help
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| Mon, 04-28-2008 - 9:34am |
Hi everyone,
Im new here and I'm here because something happened over the weekend that I've been so ashamed of myself over and I havent been able to stop thinking about it (and basically beating myself up over). I'm 31 years old and have always been strictly into men. While friends and I do go out occasionally and dance together / get drinks, I've never done anything with a woman nor have I wanted to. One of my ex's even used to try to beg me to go with him to swing clubs and I used to get insulted and I never would. Anyway, this weekend, a friend of mine and I went out and ended up at this bar where she had a guy friend of hers meet up with us. He brought a guy friend of his and we were all EXTREMELY drunk. I realize I shouldn’t have let myself get to this point, but it happened and we ended up at my friend's house. Before I knew it, you can basically guess what was happening between all 4 of us. Hardly anything at all happened with my friend and I, but I'm so ashamed of myself because I allowed myself to be with both guys. I feel so used and dirty, I took a hot shower for like a half hour the next day. Also, I remember parts of what happened but not all of it. I do remember making my guy use protection but he kept taking it off and I had to keep making him put one back on. I also remember the guy was drunk so he really couldn’t "perform" (I'm saying this because I think that’s probably a good thing because I don’t remember him "finishing" ever). I do know for sure the other guy stayed 100% protected. The one I was with didn’t "finish" but I'm not sure if he was protected 100% of the time, so now I'm really really scared. I am probably going to go to the gyn and tell her what happened and ask to be checked out, but I feel so guilty and used and dirty now and I don’t know how to get rid of this feeling. I just feel like I did something so bad, so unlike myself and all because I had been drinking because I know 100% if I hadnt been, that NEVER wouldn’t happened.

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Hi Baby
I'm sorry that you feel so bad about this.
Hi Jet~
Please don't beat yourself up.
Concupiscibly Yours,![]()
Dear Jetsluvr
I know exactly how you feel -- used, dirty, ashamed of yourself, and probably several other feelings, too.
Hugs,
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