Alone Again
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Alone Again
| Thu, 03-09-2006 - 11:17am |
I was engaged to be married and about 3 days ago, my ex-fiance, really showed his colors for the final and last time. So I called off the wedding, the relationship, everything. This was a long-distance relationship. Basically I felt like he's never going to change and why should I subject myself to a relationship where my whereabouts are being questioned and him playing with my emotions all of the time. However, he had a plane ticket to come out here tomorrow morning (we both went about 50/50 on it) and I cancelled it last night. I felt like the break up is too new and I don't really want to (1) deal with him probably trying to 'make things better' (which he's hugely known for) and, (2) him actually fine with the break up, that'll just make me feel bad about myself, and (3) him possibly trying to take all the gifts he's bought me back. This is actually the first time that he hasn't tried to call, email, etc....... to get me back with him. I guess the idea of someone giving up on me is the most hurtful part, mostly from someone who told you that they love you. Do I have my emotions all mixed up??? I mean I should be estatic that we're broken up, so i don't have to deal with his hang-ups and mental abuse, but today (3rd day) I'm truly sad. Any words of advice for me????

even though you know you made the right decision - and it sounds like you did - emotions are a messy thing - and the two of you have been together for a long time so of course you'll have ambivalence, ego attacks (even i dump hiim he must prove his eternal devotion, etc). It's a loss even if it's a necessary one
It's a hard, brave thing you are doing. Now is the time to garner as much support as you can and to pamper yourself as much as possible.
Good luck
Sherry