Crushing on my ex
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| Tue, 04-06-2004 - 9:40pm |
Anyway, I cannot seem to get him out of my head. And it's not even in a negative way, like I had with my other ex. I don't even feel like we broke up. I really don't think this is another of one of those 'I want my ex back' sort of feelings. I've had no contact with him since our breakup and I'm dying to just drop a line to say hello. I miss him and his friends, but not in a way that an ex gf would. I miss him like a friend I haven't seen in a while. Totally positive feelings towards him. I feel like I'm developing a crush on him all over again, like he's a guy I know and when I think of him, I feel all giddy, just like if I started developing a girly crush on someone. I'd like to see him and just hang out with him and his friends again, even if it's just as casual friends. This is a new thing for me so anyone have thoughts?

Anyway, last night I wrote him an email asking how he's doing, and that I feel bad for having pushed into a relationship when he was clear from the beginning that he didn't want anything serious. I really do feel bad about that. I think I pushed what I wanted more instead of listening to his feelings. Then I told him that I missed hanging out with him and his friends and that they make me laugh and I wish I could keep that. I told him to get back to me and let me know if he wants to hang out some time.
I guess all I can do now is wait and see what happens.