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| Sun, 06-20-2004 - 12:07pm |
Hi, ive been seeing someone for six months and am so crazy about him and love him. he says he loves being with me, although hasnt said anything about love, i see him on the weekend thats the only time i can as he has two kids and they stay with there mom then, sometimes though i dont get to see him for a couple of weeks and feel so sad and upset about not seeing him, i find myself wishing my days away wanting them to be over i know thats not a good thing and that i should be making the most of every day, we text each other every day and phone a lot too but it doesnt stop me from feeling the way i do.
i havent met his kids yet and he hasnt told them about me either, i would like to and have asked him about it and he says he will do when hes ready, he likes to take things slow but the way i feel about him i really struggle with that.i guess if we both have kids then things arent easy but i would go out of my way to arrange some way to see him instead of waiting for two weeks. do other people out there struggle with this kind of thing or does it mean that i am just weak? i dont want to feel so sad all the time, i am so happy and feel so high when i do see him, if i have tears in my eyes just before leaving then it makes me wonder how people coped in the war going for god knows how long, am i just weak and pathetic over love?
i havent met his kids yet and he hasnt told them about me either, i would like to and have asked him about it and he says he will do when hes ready, he likes to take things slow but the way i feel about him i really struggle with that.i guess if we both have kids then things arent easy but i would go out of my way to arrange some way to see him instead of waiting for two weeks. do other people out there struggle with this kind of thing or does it mean that i am just weak? i dont want to feel so sad all the time, i am so happy and feel so high when i do see him, if i have tears in my eyes just before leaving then it makes me wonder how people coped in the war going for god knows how long, am i just weak and pathetic over love?
sarah

i know i have to do something cant let myself get miserable for two weeks, just that when i am with him i am so happy more than i have ever been. yes we speak on the phone a lot and text each other every day but it doesnt stop me wishing i was there with him, the time seems to go really slow for me, i have one child at school and the other who is three is due to start nursery in september, i really want to go back to work and find something to keep me really busy and more fullfilled, i guess i just have too much time on my hands to think too much, i really need to be happy in myself instead of just being happy because of another person, maybe two weeks wouldnt feel like so long if i felt content with the rest of my life so i will do whatever i can to fix that.
sarah
sarah