Goodbye

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-31-2004
Goodbye
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Fri, 08-13-2004 - 8:39pm
Writing a message seems pointless to me. Some people will read it but no one really cares. I'm 5 months pregnant my fiance cheated on me and left to go with someone that cheated on him who he chated on with someone who once was my best friend. But who cares I'm completly and utterly alone. My friends are to busy, my ex only calls me if he needs something, he plays with my heart and says he loves me but he doesn't. I can't seem to get a job although at second interview I'm assured that I have the job. Everyone doesn't care and so I'm at the point niether do I. I can't live anymore and I don't want to I'm tired of pretending I'm ok. am I supposed to be I've never felt so abandoned in my entire life and I can't live with this pain anymore . See its easy to write to you guys because everyone is so consumed with there lives that i would rather have, than to possibly care that i won't be around tommorow and how could you care nobody knows or even wants to know me so I wish you the best in your lives and farewell to my life. He should of knew that I would not survive with this pain , God doesn't even seem to be here.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 08-13-2004
In reply to: lavenderflame
Fri, 08-13-2004 - 9:18pm
Hi lavenderflame,

I have no idea of how to respond to the pain you're obviously feeling except to say that God DOES care. Otherwise I never would have hit that "post reply" button. I'm not a person who likes to get involved on message boards because I don't like becoming addicted to relationships with people I'll never meet. But your message really touched my fairly calloused heart and made me feel a need to respond. Please don't do anything drastic. Your life is important enough to God to make us both arrive at the same message board at the same time so that you would know that someone does care -- even a perfect stranger. And soon you're going to have another perfect stranger come into this world who is going to love you and need you in a way you've never known was possible (I don't have any children, but every mom I've known says this is the case). So, please don't give up yet. God loves you, and your baby will love you. Please just hang in there.

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: lavenderflame
Fri, 08-13-2004 - 10:42pm
Hello lavenderflame...

 
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-17-2002
In reply to: lavenderflame
Sat, 08-14-2004 - 12:05am
Hey there lavenderflame. People DO care and that is why these boards are here so you can find people that will listen and hopefully give advice. I know that my problems do not compare to yours and I wouldn't even try, but people here are good listeners and many are good advice givers. I agree that it is important for you to get some help. There may even be free or low cost services in your area and try out some of the links about depression. But keep talking and keep going! You can get through this and as silly and trite as it sounds, you can learn from this and become a stronger person. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Let us know how things go.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 02-19-2004
In reply to: lavenderflame
Sat, 08-14-2004 - 2:27am
no matter what... you're going to find you have a lot of strength inside - more than you realize.

hang tough, ok?

keep writing.

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-26-2004
In reply to: lavenderflame
Sat, 08-14-2004 - 7:59am

Lavenderflame,


Complete strangers such as us on the internet really DO care.

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