Hiya!!! My name is Jessica. Well, I have been seriously dating my boyfriend Joey, and we have decided that we want a future and to have kids together. Now we've been having a lack of communication for a month or so, and it's been making me really upset. I've seen him once over this duration (a month), and his friends see him at least twice a week. Now his excuse for our communication problem is, "We just don't have anything to talk about, that's all," and my reply is, "For an entire month?..." Also, his excuse for not spending as much time with me as I'd like is, "My friends are five minutes away from me. You're an hour and a half away, and you know my mother doesn't want me down there." (He is 18, and I am 17. He was held back, and he's going to be a senior this year, and we want to get married after college. I'm only a junior this year coming up because I enrolled in kindergarten a year late.) It's not spending time with his friends that bother me, it's just that, you'd think he'd wanna see me more since it's summer vacation, and this was a really rocky month for us, ya know? I love him, and I'd do anything for him, but... I think I'm beginning to see my best guy friend Sean as more than just a friend (neither of them know this). Ever since our sophomore year, Sean and I have gotten really close, and we can't get ENOUGH time to talk!!! And he doesn't seem to ignore me like Joey does, although Sean has ditched me for his friends a few times... But other than that, we get along like two peas in a pod. You'll always find us laughing, talking, and/or rough-housing. Whenever I talk to him, I feel actually connected to him, like he's a great listener 90% of the time, and he's angry at Joey for what he's putting me through lately. Also, Sean and I were talking about prom, and he says to me, "I probably won't have anyone to go with." I felt bad for him, so I asked, "If you don't have anybody to go with, and if it's okay with Joey, do you wanna go to prom with me?" To my surprise, he said yes. I talked it over with Joey, explained what was said, and he seems okay with it. I told Joe, "Look, if you don't want me to go with him, I won't." He replies, "No, it's okay. I trust you completely."
Now, there's two things wrong with this situation:
1) I've cheated on two ex-boyfriends (serious, I might add), and I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want to cheat again... I recently had more than one chance to cheat on Joey, but I stopped myself after I had thought about it. I told him this, and he says, "Jess, thinking about it is one thing, but actually doing it is something different... I still love and look at you the same way."
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2) How do I know if Sean is attracted to me or not? I mean, if I come out and say and/or ask about our feelings toward each other, he might not be. But if we are receptive to each other, that would create more pain and heartache for all three of us.
What do I do? I NEED HELP!!! LOL :-P Please, any, ANY advice would be greatly appreciated!!!
God Bless,
Jess :-P
God Bless,
Jess :-P