how do i let go??
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| Sun, 08-08-2004 - 12:45am |
my ex broke up with me nearly three months ago...and i am still not over it. up until the last couple of weeks, i tried to be his "friend" as he wanted. but - this "friendship" wasnt quite textbook normal...we would spend entire days together, cuddle in front of the tv, and once, we were intimate again. as much as i want him near me, it was very hard for me. so, in the end, i broke off our friendship.
but i still miss him incredibly so. and i cant seem to move on or get over it. i think about him literally nonstop, and i am constantly overwhelmed at my loss. i think, for me, the worse part is having that "hope" - i keep expecting that he woudl email me, call me, or something to come running back to me. but he doesnt. no matter how many times i check my cell phone or my emails or how much i just yearn for it...im still mourning alone.
for example, i knew he was at a wedding today, and the whole day, i feared that he would meet someone new. tonight, like an idiot - i blocked my number and called his cell, but ofcourse, hung up when he answered.
i dont want to feel this way. i want to be happy again. i want to let go and just be okay. any suggestions?? :(

If you really want to "just let go and be okay"----JUST LET GO AND BE OKAY!
3 MONTHS is a very short time to downsize from a serious couple to just buddies! And knowing deep down inside that your "recent intimate encounter" was a non-significant event...probably made you feel lousy a few hours later?
With the weekend wedding your EX is attending, there's NO WAY you can control the people he meets and the actions he takes! You can only control YOUR OWN!
Pianoguy doesn't believe your life is so shallow that all of it revolves around this one man! So for once and for all..give yourself permission to 'lose the EX' and let the rest of the men in the world know that YOU are a woman worth getting to know!
Best wishes, warm thoughts and a few hugs from...
Pianoguy
Here's a link to a post on the Mending Broken Hearts board that I hope will help you:
http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-rlmendingbro&msg=9612.1
Sheri