just a summer fling?
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| Thu, 08-26-2004 - 12:40pm |
while i was with him i knew that it was only for a week, that i do not want to go back to long distance relationship as i suffered too much from last year break-up and wanted something normal, not virtual. but he inisted i call/sms him when i arrive home, that i keep in touch, that i visit him in his country as soon as possible, that he will come over to my place as soon as he can. he begged me to stay for another week in france but i had to get back to work or i'd risk losing it.
i don't know what to think. we talked twice since i came back. it's crappy that sms between my country and france (where he is now) is not working properly - i can receive his text messages but can't reply, only call, which is very expensive. until Sept 15th he does'nt have much of internet access.
i truly miss him now, although i still think i'm not in love. but being with him was great and i miss being with him. i am waiting for more news from him and hate this expectation - last thing i want is to get hurt again. after my last relationship i don't really trust anyone 100%.
is it normal? should i really fly over to Paris and visit him as he asked me to? it's quite expensive.. and i'm afraid i'll get more hooked for nothing. should i ask him what/who i am to him and whether he is into it so much that he wants us to try being together?
he is 27, i'm 24. we lead different lives, he studies in Paris till next Aug, then off to Stanford. i work and have good career. i'm not sure he wants to have serious relationship although not able to explain why
i'm lost...
| Thu, 08-26-2004 - 3:17pm |
| Sun, 08-29-2004 - 12:08am |
