LOST: one regular mind

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Registered: 11-21-2003
LOST: one regular mind
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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 6:26pm
hello , i have posted here before and i have really been helped so hopefully you guys will not thow the book at me for this one. please be gentle. .......

my issue is that i have come to realize that i base my happiness on my status with whatever guy i am dating and i know its not right but i do it anyways. like for instance i have been seeing this FWB for some time now and even though i know its not right i still do it anyways and if he pisses me off i get all depressed and i take it out on people who dont deserve it. i am 28 yrs old ,i am very active and i just lost 70 pounds (i am now a gym junkie ) i have a good job , i am the the mother of a beautiful 6 year old daughter, i have alot going for me, i have just purchased my own house (ON MY OWN - NO SUPPORT FROM ANYONE), i am surrounded by the most beautiful and wonderful friends and family, AND YET i am not happy. it pisses me off that i am not happy about these things and i beat myself up and try not think of my life as being dismal but i still become depressed and sad. i have come to realize that i would like to settle down with the right man, and i know i am just in the meantime right now where i am just a jerk magnet ( i have been meeting other guys but they all turn out to be DUDS)but i am sick of being depressed over a guy who is not worth it and i am tired of feeling this way ALL THE TIME!!!! if anyone could help me with an escape route i would greatly appreciate all advice ....... i know your happiness should not be based on being in a relationship, and i know i am feeling lonely but this is getting way out of hand here. these emotions are really putting a damper on me and my surroundings.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sat, 08-07-2004 - 6:44pm
I honestly don't know of any way past these issues other than counseling with a good therapist, and lots of hard work on your part (as guided by the counselor). You need to get to the root of why you have such low self-esteem, and counseling can help you.

It really does help!

Sheri