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| Fri, 11-10-2006 - 6:59am |
I posted this in some other forums, but I'd like your feedback as well.
I recently emailed a man, whom I had dated for some time but we split up. Told him I missed him and still loved him. He sent me back, and up until the last part, the 30 years thing, I think it was possitive. But what in the world is he saying with that? Is he saying too bad it will never work, see ya?
X,
You know I love you and the boys ... things go amiss, and it is nothing that
you or I did. Life has a funny way of making us live ... it's simple idea and
I haven't ever got it :) My close friends have always been about being, and I
understand what you have to say. You are one of the most intelligent,
charasmatic people that I have ever met ... cuddoes! You even took a stray
leaf in the head with honor :) I wish things were different on many levels,
too bad we agree 30 years from now.

I saw him, very briefly, last night. Well, he wants to be "Friends" and says I can stop by his house anytime I want. That neither one of us can bend enough to make this work. I said "I can bend" and he said "not enough" And then said "do you think this hasn't hurt me?" And he is, this man who says he loves me and my boys soooo much, already back on Match.com looking for his next girlfriend.
I can't do it, be friends with a man I am in love with, knowing he is with other women. So when he said that to me last night, I just said "I cant do that right now" He will just go find someone else, and a year from now I will find out he is married with kids on the way, just like my last ex is.
He went to give me some type of goodbye hug, I couldn't even lift my arms up to do it. I just stood there, and then I walked away.
So freaking sad, this thing they call love :(