Please Help! What's He Doing?

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Registered: 09-16-2007
Please Help! What's He Doing?
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Sun, 09-30-2007 - 4:02pm

Okay - to make a very long story short...

On August 26, my boyfriend of 6 years broke up with me. This was preceded by a two-week "break" that I asked him to take because I couldn't sleep near him knowing he didn't know if he wanted to be with me or not. He said it had nothing to do with another girl, or even that he wanted to date, but that he does love me...etc. He said that he didn't know if this is what he wanted for the rest of his life, why he isn't ready to marry me yet...He said he doesn't really know why - that he felt it was just the best thing for us to do at the time. He didn't talk to me for a week. I saw a girl's car at his house the following Saturday and called him to pick up his stuff. He told me he couldn't - that she was over. I asked if she had anything to do with our break-up. He insisted no and that she has a boyfriend and they are just friends from childhood - in fact, other people were there too (which I later learned to all be true).

Anyway, Labor Day he came to get his clothes. He made sure I was there when he did and he visited for about 2 hours. We watched tv and talked about things. He told me again that he does love me, he'd do anything in the world for me, that he misses kissing me, stuff like that, and that it really has nothing to do with any other girls "despite what you may think". He kissed me a bunch (of course I was so mad but I let him - I love him...). He made remarks about going through his clothes to get rid of stuff "this when if I do come back I will only be bringing 4 bags instead of 8" and told me he'd call me.

Two weeks pass and I hear not one word from him. I hear from his brother (who likes to cause turmoil) that the same girl that was over that week was over the following 2 Saturdays (at parties with other people, however) - but that was the only day she visited and apparently from what HE knew, he didn't talk to her much...Okay. Honestly, I don't think she is really a part of the situation but I figured I'd include it in case.

Sunday, Sept. 16 he texts me at 9pm with a simple "hey what's up" so I don't answer. I get a repeat message the following morning followed by a "what u wont even say hi?". I still don't answer. Tuesday he sends a message "still not responding?". Finally Wednesday he texts again "please can we talk?" So I write to him that if he wants to talk he should call me. He does. We talked for 45 minutes just about things - why we broke up, what he is thinking. He asked why I wouldn't respond at first, I told him that I didn't want to break up and I still want to be with him, so if he is just trying to be "friends" then I can't do it because if he sees someone else I will feel like I am getting broken up with all over again. He says he understands. So I tell him I think it's a good idea not to talk unless he is thinking about being us again. We get off the phone on a good note. He texts a few more times and calls back! We flirt for a few minutes on the phone and he says that he misses talking to me like that. Also that he wants me to know that he really does love me. Ok.

Now, Thursday he texts me all day and ends up stopping at my house. He waits for me to get home even though I am not there. We go in, talk, flirt, and eventually have sex. I know! Classic mistake! I heard all about it. But it's HIM. And I did want to so...

Friday he texts me all day. Ends up telling me he is just hanging out at home watching tv with his parents. I am out & tell him so. He asks where, with who, etc. (okay, we are 25 & 26 sorry I neglected that before) Saturday he texts me early in the evening asking what I am doing & I am going to a hockey game. He tells me to have fun. During the game he texts to ask score, etc. He texts at end of game & then asks what else I am doing. I ask him the same, he says he is home watching tv. I tell him he can text me later that I'll be around he says "I'll be home."

Sunday he texts me again in the afternoon. Then that night he calls me around 8pm & asks what I am doing. I say that I am driving around looking at some houses. He tells me about his work schedule coming up, his golf tournament, stuff like that. He then tells me he wants to stop over for alittle if that's ok. I tell him ok. I tell myself "no making out!" So I get to the house, he's there. We go in and we talk, we flirt, we watch tv. We end up making out which of course leads to sex. Now I feel like crap because I feel like he is only coming over to have sex even though we talk all week and that we don't start off all like ripping our clothes off and stuff..we are just hanging. I tell him he has to stop coming over to do me! That I need dates or some kind of commitment. I know to him it doesn't seem like I do because I keep sleeping with him but we've been together for 6 years - hard to turn those feelings off when I didn't want to to begin with. We talk on the phone after that and I tell him that I can't be "just friends" with him OR "friends with benefits" so if that's what he's going after to please stop. He says he doesn't know what he wants but that he isn't hanging out with any other girls (he doesn't say he's not "talking to" anyone so maybe he is, I don't know...). He does tell me that he loves me to make sure I know that. I ask him what his problem is then. I tell him "obviously you are attracted to me still" (he says, 'obviously') "and you still love me" ('i do') "and we have fun together as friends?" ('yeah, we do')"then what is it? why are we broken up?" he says it's hard to explain. Maybe it has something to do with marriage - that's he not AFRAID to get married but .... Maybe things got boring....Maybe...he doesn't know what he wants to do.

Okay, so Monday I don't hear from him at all (he works in Ohio every other week so he left that day). Tuesday he texts me about having fun in Florida (I was leaving for 2 days). Wednesday he texts me about if I am having fun and when do I get back? Thursday he texts me about the baseball game I went to. He flirts about seeing me on Friday and that he can be nice and we do some teasing. Right before he goes to sleep - long after I ended messages - he texts goodnight.

Friday morning I return and he texts "make it back ok?" We text alittle about the flight and the day - he asks if I am going to work. Stuff like that. He texts me all day at work little things like "remember, I am the cute one!" Little teasing things and pet names we used to call each other. (Make no mistake, pet names and inside couple jokes that we had have been coming into play since the first phone call...sorry, I didn't mention that). Friday night he sees me leaving with a guy friend to go to another hockey game. He texts me later about not saying hi and asks if I wasn't where he was. Here he ends up calling and telling me that he saw "that kids" car that I was in leaving when I saw him and he thought we were in the same place. I explain that "that kid" is just a guy I work with and there was a third person in the back seat. "Oh..." So he asks what I am doing and I tell him I am home. He says he is going to a bar if I want to stop by. But I decline. He says they are only going for one - that he'll call me when they are done. He texts 20 minutes later asking if I want to go to his house to hang out (he is staying with his mom). I debate with myself but end up going. We sit downstairs in plain view. We watch tv, talk, flirt, make out alittle. He tells me that he loves me "you know that right?" and again that he'd do anything in the world for me. Then he is trying to kiss me and I won't let him. He asks me why and I say that I don't know where his lips have been. He smiles - we do some more flirting. Then he asks me what's wrong. I tell him that I feel like he is trying to talk to me and see me so that he can keep me on the side just in case nothing better comes along. He gets a really sad and hurt look on his face - I mean genuine - I know the guy after all (I know his pretend "damn, you caught me" face and this wasn't it). He tells me that he is calling me because he wants to talk to me, that he wants to see me, etc. That it would be easier for him to not if he was playing. He tells me to please not feel that way...and so on. So I ask him when he is going to be "just mine" again. I tell him not to talk to girls, etc. and he says he really isn't - that I'm the only one he kisses or wants to kiss. That any other girls he talks to are "okay, but they aren't YOU". So we flirt, make out alittle more. Then he stops. He is quiet. I am like "What" and he says "will you please stay here with me tonight?" I explain that we can't have sex so...I don't think it's a good idea. And I am sticking to it. He says he understands and all that but he keeps asking me to please stay that he just wants to cuddle with me and lay with me. I look at him skeptically and he says "I mean, don't get me wrong, I'll probably try stuff..." and we both laugh. But I am all saying no. Finally it's time for me to leave and I really don't want to. I know you are all groaning and going "idiot girl" but I wanted to stay. So I did stay. Now, this is his mom's house. We are risking her seeing me the next day and all that can of worms. So we originally lay down to sleep. We fall asleep. Then we wake up (I think my phone rang or something) and we kiss alittle and it freaking leads to sex. I know...but see, that obviously WASN'T his intention because we were sleeping...you know? So we cuddle more - go back to sleep.

(Oh, I did peek at his phone when I had the chance. There are a few girls' phone numbers in there, however, I haven't looked at his phone since we broke up - actually since Aug 10 - so I don't know how long he has had those numbers or even if he still talks to those girls...I saw some recent txts to me and one to a girl but it was just in response to hers asking what he was doing "not much" was the reply...nothing overly flirty like our texts were. Some recent missed calls from girls but that's about it. So like I said, I don't know how old they are or if they are still in use).

Next day I leave early but he cuddles and hugs me. He calls me that night to tell me about his day and we chat about his work and that it stinks he has to work on the weekend and so far away (it's another Ohio week). He says he did nothing that night besides get stuff packed and ready to go. Then he says he has to finish something and he'll call me back. He does. He says he is laying in bed and asks me what I am doing. I say going to sleep too. He says that he thought I was going to stay over again that night and I said that #1 he never asked #2 it was too late to go over (it wasn't but I am being too easy) and he says that he wants to cuddle with me and that he just sleeps better when I am near him...All that. So we talk alittle more and we get off the phone.

Next morning he texts me at 7:30am to see if I am up. I am so he says okay that he is on his way to work. Then he does some pet name texts and we tease and then that's it. And that's where I am right now.

So here's the deal: I am so confused! I mean, I don't know for sure that he is talking to other girls. He may be. He may not be. He insists he doesn't "do anything" with anyone but me...He's not a good liar if he was lying and honestly, while we were first dating and together he would sooner tell me the truth and hurt my feelings then tell me a lie. That's just how he is. So I am inclined to believe him. Part of me thinks that this might be his slow way of saying he wants to get back together but part of me feels like he is kind of playing the field and including me in the play...if that makes sense. He has mentioned about "when do you think we'll be back together" or "do you really think so" smiling to me or has said "we'll get there" (when i mention about needing the bf/gf titles) so...How do I play this? Do I ask him to not talk to me until he is sure or do I still hang with him or what? I mean, I can't tell. I don't want to push him away if this is his slow attempt at getting back but I don't want to let him walk all over me and have the "girlfriend stuff" with me and flirt with other girls too.

Please help any you can. Also, if you need details or more info, I'll gladly oblige (yeah, can there actually BE MORE INFO? I know...)

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Registered: 11-30-2006
Sun, 09-30-2007 - 6:07pm
The bottom line is are you two headed in the same direction in life?
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Registered: 04-23-2007
Mon, 10-01-2007 - 12:33pm
Wow, he is playing you baaaaaaaaadd...I can't believe you are even letting this guy do this to you. Cut all the contact out if you want to do the right thing and MOVE ON.

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Registered: 09-16-2007
Mon, 10-01-2007 - 12:44pm

Hi Snafu2006,


Thanks for your response.

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Registered: 11-30-2006
Mon, 10-01-2007 - 6:29pm

Some men (I am not saying your BF is one of them) "train" their GFs by breaking up with them.

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Registered: 07-28-2006
Tue, 10-02-2007 - 8:22am

I tend to think he doesn't know exactly what he wants. But he'll keep you around because he knows you'll always be there for him until he figures it out. Do yourself a favor chica, don't be the good girl that waits around for the guy to make up his mind until he finally decides it's not you, but the next girl. That won't be a good feeling. If I were you, I'd ask him not to contact me anymore unless he makes up his mind about the two of you.