Ready to commit or call it quits????
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| Thu, 08-09-2007 - 1:33pm |
Background: I've been dating a great guy for a little over 3 years. We started out a bit rocky but we've both grown very close over the past few years and have fallen deeply in love. He's a wonderful guy (chivalrous, kind, supportive, great sex, dedicated, successful...and on and on). We've recently started talking about getting married and he wants to spring the big question soon.
Call it Quits?
In all honesty getting married at my age (22) and starting a family was definitely not in my life plans. The big part is the kids. I want to wait until my early 30's so my career is more established, travel volunteer work is complete (I am passionate about aiding in the recovery of disaster struck nations), and I feel a bit more 'ready'. My BF is already 31 and ready to at least start trying to have kids shortly after we're married. Although he supports the work I do (career and volunteer) he wants me to take fewer and less trips and think about joining our companies together. I currently work part time supporting his company, but I feel I don't have time to do more without compromising my own career. We don't share a lot of interests and we live very seperate lives in many ways. This said, somehow it just works. The problem is that we have different ideas of the future and we're both pretty stubborn about what we want in life.
Ready to Commit?
If I am going to get married and start a family he's the perfect man to do it with. I love him and I don't want to lose what we have.
As I'm writing this I think I already know the answer to my own questions, but what if I'm making the wrong choice? I don't want to call it quits and then 5 years down the road wish that I could take it back. To this point in my life I have no regrets. I would like to keep it that way. Is it silly to give up the perfect man so I can follow my passions? The trouble is that I don't want to follow my passions alone, but in order to not be alone I feel like I have to give up part of my passions. To follow my passions I end up alone.
HELP!

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I had mentioned to another poster that a man would have no problem leaving behind a woman to pursue his passions in life, and in theory, it should be the same for a woman. But many times it doesn't work out that way for women...unless...along the way...you meet a man in your volunteer work who shares your passion - that would be great!
He sounds like a great guy who is almost 10 years older than you and now he is ready to settle down. You can't worry about not meeting another man, but decent people are hard to find these days, so times have changed for all of us and we have to rethink how we manage our lives.
What exactly do you mean about joining your companies together?
If you have different ideas of the future and have different life goals, then down the road you will part ways anyway.
You clearly both care about each other a great deal and while I understand not wanting to have regrets later if you don't move forward now that could go the other way as well - marrying him and then wondering what would have happened if you had followed your passion.
The best thing to do is to break it off sooner rather than later, and to not contact him again once you do so.
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I haven;t read the other responses so there is likely some repeats:
first of all - your gut instincts are never wrong. NEVER. Its when we rationalize and talk ourselves out of what we know in our hearts to be true that oftens leads us to do things we later regret. The reverse is never true. When you purse your TRUTH, your PASSION and your GOALS, you will find that yes, sometimes you do have to walk it alone - because its YOURS and somethings YOU MUST DO - but walking alone sometimes doesn't mean all the time. The right people come along at the right time.
If you have to give up part any or your dreams for someone else, your heart and spirit cry and slowly start to die. YOu become angry, depressed, agitated and most definitely unsatisfied. It is your choice to sacrifice YOUR dreams for someone else - but do so knowing that your soul will not go quietly. It will keep coming up throughout your life until you say yes to your dreams again.
Hon, you ask is it silly to give up the 'perfect man' just to follow your dreams? No. It is the SMART thing to do - because when you are living and honoring what is in your heart - you get both when the time is right! But if you give up your dreams, that 'perfect' man you sacrificed yourself for will soon become someone you hate and resent. That life you chose will be a burden and have no joy.
The right man at teh wrong time is the wrong man. No matter how 'perfect' he is. If you don't want to get married and have kids yet, then don't. Doing it for someone else is the wrong reason. The only reason to get married and start a family is because its right for YOU. It doesn't sound like its right for you right now.
YOu know what is right for you - you can tell by what your body says - do you feel heavy and anxious when thinking giving up your dreams and doing what you are't 100% commited to? do you feel light hearted and energized when you think about following the path your dreams take you? Or is the reverse true?
Don't let anyone talk you out of what is right for you - including yourself. You will regret it. You will never regret doing what your instincts tell you to do. A
Toni
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