run away to ditch depression?
Find a Conversation
| Sat, 11-13-2004 - 2:45pm |
i'm 24, single (ended serious relationship last september, dated for a short period and now again on my own not seeing 'the one' around), work and have quite a successful career for someone at my age, got awesome friends i love spending time with, etc, etc.
but lately things somehow started to look grey. many things that made me happy were no longer motivating.. being single when 90% of ur company consists of happy couples; working hard but realizing that learning curve has reached its plateau for the next 2-3 yrs (and it's confirmed by boss who appreciates me 100% but feels there's not enough challenge in work anymore to keep me energized and motivated).
so i told my boss that i'll be applying for master's degree in france and will leave my job for a year starting sept 2005. i became desperate to leave many things behind and escape to find myself. to get motivated thru studies in the language i am only "ok" at the moment, to change the environment and perhaps meet someone who i will fall in love with. to get a recognized degree in the field i am working on and be more 'marketable'. to get out of work environment and feel again what student life is all about..
i know, running away to find happiness is not the best option. but what else should i do? how to ditch this feeling of depression? not like i'm not loved or lack attention. not at all. i just don't have 'my own corner' in this world and 'my special person' and somehow i'm no longer ok with this :( i don't really feel part of my country, many things in it make me upset (corruption, government's narrow-mindness, stupid traditions that no longer make sense but are kept just for their own sake)..anyway, it's all so complex..
i have no clue where i'm going and where i will be in several years. my only big goal at the moment is to learn french as well as possible, be admitted to the university and get hell out of here. but will that make me happy? why i'm no longer optimistic and in control? why such thing as being single makes me uncomfortable but at the same time i do not fall in love already so many months? so many 'whys'
ur advice, comments, views will be very much appreciated.. i need some guidance or maybe cold shower of reality

However. Realize that you cannot outrun your problems. They'll be getting on the plane with you and will be right next to you where you land. Turn around and face the core issues now.
You have to decide whether or not a new move is just so you can run away or if it's because you need new opportunities. If the latter, then I would go for it. If the former, then really think it through before moving.
I hope this helps. Keep us posted!