screwed up and in love
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screwed up and in love
| Mon, 11-01-2004 - 9:03pm |
Right now, I feel so stupid! I've allowed myself to be the typical doormat once again! It sounds so bad, but I've been involved with a guy (who lives with his girlfriend)for the past 3 1/2 years. It started out as this exotic fling but it just kept growing stronger. I'm not a home wrecker--this is only the second time I've been involved with a guy for longer than 6 months. But as the time went on, I grew more attached and he just kept making promises. This is the last straw, though. He's been lying to me, telling me how badly he wants to break up with her (he's said this for the past year) and he had an opportunity to do it this past weekend. Instead, he bought her a puppy and they're trying to work things out. I know what you're going to say...he's a jerk. I can do better. He's not worth my time. These things I know, but what I can't understand is why I can't get over him? I stopped speaking to him for 7 months, but one day, I ran into him, and it all came flooding back. I've tried to go out with other guys, but nothing compares to him. Right now, I feel so worthless and stupid. Like all this time, I thought it was going somewhere and really, he was just using me. I know I need to move on, but how do I go about doing that? Whenever he's near me, my heart just melts and nothing else seems to matter. I need some advice, please!

Girl, love yourself and walk away from this guy. SEt your BS gauge to zero. He's holding you up from ever creating a real relationship...after three years of this, it's not going to take a week to get over him...give yourself time to mourn and get to know yourself before you get out there...of course no other guy has a chance. Especially if he might be a nice guy who is going to treat you right. You sound like someone like that would bore you to tears.