Should I give my ex a chance?
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Should I give my ex a chance?
| Sat, 11-20-2004 - 5:48pm |
My boyfriend and I have recently gone on a break and we are trying to date other people. We were engaged but have called off the engagement just recently because I realized that I'm not ready to get married and I just want to go out and date other guys and have fun. I'm only 21 years old, but I don't think my boyfriend is the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with. I really don't know how to go about this, but I believe that my ex boyfriend is really my soulmate. We dated for almost 3 months when we were in high school and we broke up because we were both really immature, but we remained pretty good friends. Well, he went off to college and when he came back a year later, he had completely changed. He had matured and he was such a great person. We saw each other at a football game and I don't know how, but I completely fell for him in one night and I know for a fact that he never got over me. We spent some time together after that because my boyfriend and I were having some problems and my ex was a very good person to talk to about them. Well, we both felt very strongly about each other and I ended up kissing him one night when we were hanging out. I felt extremely guilty about cheating on my boyfriend and I was afraid of him finding out, so I just quit talking to my ex. But since then, there has not been a day that I have not thought about him. The problem is that I never could decide between my boyfriend and my ex. I kept choosing my boyfriend over him because it was extremely hard for me to break up with him. Every time my ex would come back into town I would go see him and then end up not talking to him again. I've done this several times and I know that it hurts him each time I do it, but I'm afraid that my boyfriend would find out. We've never done anything sexually with my ex so that's not even an issue between us and that doesn't have anything to do with the way that I feel about him. But, this is where it gets complicated. I had seen him right after I got engaged and had taken off my engagement ring because I didn't want him to know that I was engaged because I was terrified that if he found out he wouldn't want to ever speak to me again and that thought scared me more than anything. So I didn't tell him that day, but he ended up finding out a few weeks later and he dropped everything and joined the military. I know he did it because of me and I hate myself for it. But now that my boyfriend and I are dating other people, I wanted to find him, but I didn't know if there was any way he would forgive me. I just found out today that he is in training camp up in North Carolina and I am in Texas. I am desperate to get a hold of him somehow, but I don't know if I should. I've never gotten the chance to do the whole dating thing, so I would like to do that, but a huge part of me wants to jump back into a relationship with my ex. What should I do? Please help! Thank you!
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| Sun, 11-21-2004 - 9:29am |
Missing your xf is not the same as wanting to be with him. You already know that you don't want to get married to him...why drag this out? Get out there and have your fun, there's nothing wrong with that, but don't look back.
