Sooo confused, Don't know what to do...
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| Tue, 04-06-2004 - 12:36am |
First I would like to say I've never written in before like this so I'm really not sure what to expect. I am bearly 21 and a senior in college. I've been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years. At times I feel as if he's the one, while at other times I think of going out and dating around. Well i finaly decided to break it off telling myself I could never love him the way he loves me. But right now I feel so lost with out him. I dont know what to do with myself at times. I try to stay busy in school and work. I talk to my mom about the way i feel and she says its normal to go back and forth. But i guess what I'm really asking is How do I know if he's the one? I'm the type of person that can't make a desicion on what to eat for dinner at times. Also my parent got divorced when i was little so i wonder if that has something to do with it. Am i just scared and running or am i blocking someone that loves me with all he can?
Hopefuly you can help,
lost and confused
chonchita83

A lot of your post reads to me more like I'm scared to check it out, than I really love him. It will be painful and after five years, how can you not be sad?? But you know what it is to be in love, to have a meaningful relationship...it will happen again for you. dont' stay with him becuase you're scared of life. You both deserve better.