Tired of it all

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Registered: 08-23-2004
Tired of it all
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Mon, 08-23-2004 - 7:17pm
About 3 months ago me and boyfriend broke up. Till this day I do not understand why we broke it off. We fought and broke up alot. But we always manage to get got back togethor in a matter of hours. Until one day I got so mad at him, I told him I am tired of everything with you, I think that we shouldn't be togethor. He told me is that what you really want I said yes. He said are you sure in a different tone I said yes. Then we immediately hung up the phone. I was like what did I just do all confused. Then I called him back and couple of hours later and told him that I was just playing around. He told me no mel, not this time it is over. I am tired all of this. I was just devistated. Thinking of how I can get him back. I tried so many times to get him back and he always said no. We had such a great relationship I just don't understand why he wouldn't want to be with me anymore. Right now he is in that I do not want a commitment phase. How can someone one day tell you I love you with all of my heart and one day just say I do not want a commitment anymore. Since it has been 3 months since we have broken up his feelings for me have totally change now he only care for me as a friend. To come to think of it I began to realize this person maybe never really cared about me. That is something that I guess only he will know. But I miss him like crazy and I think about him all the time. I just do not know what to do anymore. He told me just give me some time I need to be away. Let me miss you. I haven't given him that chance to miss me yet cause I am always calling him. Everytime I call him I am only hurting myself cause he always tells me mean things. He is seeing someone now and he told me he really likes her. And only care for me as a friend. I just can't believe after what me and him had that he could only care me as a friend. In my heart for so reason I believe that we are soulmates. But the saying goes if he comes back it cause he was yours from the begining. Me and him were so much alike. I just need to find a way let go. I just don't know how. This is my first time being in love. What should I do.........
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 08-23-2004 - 7:28pm
melmail9864...

As long as you permit yourself to be "played with"---the pattern will continue indefinitely! Pianoguy would LOVE to know why you continue to put yourself through this same crap over and over again?

Give yourself permission to "LET HIM GO" once and for all! No more phone calls, emails or communication with this turkey.

I'm sure you MUST have better things to do with your time...and your life?

Pianoguy