Two Years, and praying.
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| Mon, 09-27-2004 - 11:47am |
Being already divorced once, I've been a little stand-offish about marrage and children, enen though it's a big issue for her. A couple of times, nearly a year ago, we were making love, and she, being drunk, tried to force me to get her pregnant. It hurt me at the time, but I got over it, and she promised to never do it again. She didnt.
As time went on, I would feel like sex was dirty, and I was not really interested in it all the time. Soon after that, cuddling became a slight issue for me. I've been working on these things, because I love her.
Only recently, in the last two months, have my feelings changed back to more normal ways. I want to be with her more than anything. To hold and to cherish. I realize now that I want to marry her, to have children with her. To make a life. But I only realized all this just before she turned to another man because of my lack of attention. Were not technicaly "broken up". I recognize that her turning from me was my own fault, that I should have paid more attention, held her more, and loved her more. But now I fear that It's too late.
When we talk, I'm overcome by sorrow, and loss. I can't seen to stop crying for more than an hour at a time. She tells me that she still loves me, but she does not know what to do. When I ask her about the other man, and when they were intimate, she told me that it was not just sex. I know that she was drunk when they met, and drunk when they slept togther. So, I harbor much hope, but by default, hope is equal to pain. Pain because I feel like she's slipping away from me.
Is this really my fault?
Is there anything I can do?
-broken0ne

Sheri
I think it's actually
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There is no excuse for cheating. I don't care how bad your behavior was; she had a choice about how to deal with it and she chose to cheat. End of story.
Sheri
Terry
Ok, I missed the part where he said they were still together when she started sleeping with the other guy.
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