What should I think?

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What should I think?
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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 2:35pm

I'm totally new to these boards, but a situation came up that I'm embarrassed to talk to my friends about and need advice on.

I'm fairly new to dating due to an early marriage (married my high school sweetheart) and a recent divorce. For the past 6 months I've been dating a man who's in his early 40's and has been a life-long bachelor. He seems to care a lot about me and we've talked about getting married at some point and starting a family. Early on in our relationship we agreed to be exclusive with each other.

The problem is that he went on a short vacation by himself recently and I found out he packed a supply of condoms when he packed for his trip. I asked him about it and he said he just did it out of habit and had no intention of using them. That seems ridiculous to me, but then again I wonder if I'm over reacting. Should I believe him and let it go?

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 2:39pm
No, you are not overreacting. A "supply of condoms"? Give me a break.
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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 2:40pm

That depends. Has he established a pattern of being truthful with you? Is he consistent in his words and actions? What has his behavior been in past relationships (from what he's told you--i.e., has he cheated or been faithful)? If he has, then yes, I'd say let it go.

Sheri

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 3:47pm

Hi.
Well, you certainly aren't overreacting. If I'm in an exclusive relationship with a man and he goes on vacation alone, there's no reason for him to take a "supply" of condoms...none whatsoever. What is that?? Like a box or two? Who takes a "supply" of condoms on vacation "out of habit"?
Have you ever had any reason to believe that this guy has cheated on you? If so, then you have your answer. If not, then it could've been his intention to do so while on this vacation. I mean, you have no real "proof" that he did anything, so you have to go with your gut here...seems like the writing's on the wall. Of course, it's up to you to decide whether or not you believe that one. The fact that you've posted about it suggests that you're doubtful. I wish you luck...just remember, you don't need to be with any man who would not only lie to you, but give you some dumb excuse, making a fool out of you!

Good luck!
Mali

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 4:17pm

Thanks for the replies, it's good to hear other people's input for a reality check.

Until this past week when this all came to light, I've had no reason to believe he's cheated on me. He seems to be open and honest with me. He doesn't pay attention to other women when we're out together. Also, I've made it pretty clear to him that I'm not the type of women who would stay in a relationship with a man who's cheating, so he knows this is a big deal.

The "supply of condoms" was really just 4 or 5, not boxes of them, but then again he was only going to be gone 4 days. My gut is telling me there's no good reason to bring any condoms. When I asked him about it, he looked like a deer in headlights and seemed to be scrambling for something to say. Now he's telling me that he's sorry, that he wasn't thinking and that he would never do anything to hurt me or jeopardize what we have.

The doubt is just really lingering. And like Mali said, it seems like he's making up lame excuses and making a fool out of me.

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 4:20pm

OK, umm, yeah, that's a little odd.

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 4:23pm

Well, as someone who travels frequently, I can tell you that I often go on autopilot when packing and will scoop toiletries into my bag from a drawer that I keep that kind of stuff in and always take stuff out of for traveling. I don't necessarily really pay attention to whether I'll "need" each thing or not--the stuff from the drawer goes in the bag and that's that. Is it at ALL possible that's what happened here? Or would he have had to make a conscious effort to put the condoms in his bag?

Sheri

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 4:31pm

That's exactly what he said happened. He said he went on autopilot, went through the drawer where the condoms were looking for other stuff and just packed a couple of condoms, too, without thinking about it because he was packing lots of things. This is really hard for me to imagine because I just don't operate that way, but maybe it's the truth if you do the same thing.

The other weird thing is that he knows I use that drawer, too, so he knows I would notice they were gone. If he was really trying to go behind my back, would he really be so blatant?

I noticed all this after the fact, so I don't know how many he actually brought, I just know there were some left in the bag when he got home. Ugh, I hate all this doubt.

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 4:34pm

Agreed - in my pre-packed toiletry bag, I think I had a couple condoms for a while even when I wasn't dating anyone or when I was going someplace that I had absolutely NO intention of hooking up but they were in a side pocket of the toiletry bag and I just never UN-packed them from it.

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 5:26pm
The "deer caught in head lights" thing and scrambling for words is bothersome. He said he wouldn't do anything to jeopardize the relationship so just let this one go and make not of any other strange behavior in the future. Like, if he comes back ultra affectionate from this trip...that would be guilt. I can see scooping up toiletry samples like toothpaste, deodorant, floss, etc. - not condoms. I cant see why he would do that to hurt you...which it did and it has let the wind out of your sail about him...unless he just want to screw with you or your head. Maybe to see if you do expect him to be faithful. Maybe he is a tad insecure. Men do the most damaging things to reassure themselves of their woman's love. They end up ruining relationships with their stupid behavior...which is the opposite of what they say they want.
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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 5:46pm

well - if this bugs you, have an open conversation with him and let him know that it DID bother you, perhaps more than you thought it might (own your feelings and share them) AND you are choosing to believe what he said. And you do not dwell on it any longer - because you have CHOOSEN to BELIEVE him. If you dwell on it - you aren't believing him.

Trust is something you choose to do and have and give. Unless there is anything else to cause you to doubt - then make the choice to believe him and leave this in the past. If you can't/won't then you really don't trust him - just remember - when you look for things to distrust, you will always find them.

If you don't have trust in a relationship, you really don't have a relationship!

Toni

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