what is wrong with me?!
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| Mon, 08-09-2004 - 10:26pm |
in sum, its been 3 months since my ex broke up with me, and im STILL having a horrible time dealing with it. its only been about three weeks since i decided to cut "the friendship" with him. although i have come to realize that it is too hard trying to pretend to be "friends" with him - theres still that nagging part of me that just longs for him to be in my life. i still wonder if i am doing the right thing by cutting him out of my life? what if i stayed "friends" with him and we earn our relationship back?? i mean, he would cuddle me and flirt with me when we would spend time together...wouldnt his old feelings eventually rush back to him?? am i doing the wrong thing by cutting him off???
ugh. either way - i just want to be on with my life and get rid of this horrible feeling that i keep having to go through over and over. no matter how hard i try, it just doesnt ever actually leave. and im so scared that hes with someone new...i just dont understand -how did i go from being his everything to nothing?! he hasnt tried to contact me or anything since our last conversation - why?!?? i just want to let go and not care! and i know that im told "time heals" - but its been 3 months!!! it doenst matter where i go, or who i see, or what i think or what i do - he constantly haunts me...
i think im just having a really hard time understanding, and just accepting. i think i have realized without losing hope, tried to move on without getting over it, and ive accepted the breakup without being okay with it. where do i go from here? how do i feel better? have i made the right choices??
help :S

I know that isn't really what you want to hear, but it is true. It's not easy and you'll have setbacks or times when you get down, but have a good support group of friends so when you feel that way, call someone up and go shopping, dancing or out to dinner, get ice cream or a drink/coffe. It does get better. Really. Good luck!
I'm sorry you're in this situation! it's painful & confusing & I know it seems like there's no light at the end of the tunnel... but there is! believe me.
what you have to do, is make sure in any way you can, that you don't dwell on it.
that means- going out as much as you can, meeting people, having as much fun as possible, and doing everything you can to keep your mind occupied .
don't let yourself sit home alone & pine for him. if you feel like you need a "rebound relationship", get one. seriously. it does have a way of making you feel better.
if not, just try to find the bright sides to being single. do the things you never had the chance to do when you were with him. meet old friends you haven't seen in ages.
spend some time with your family... etc.
Lead a full, happy life.
just remember, you're a great person, & you deserve to be happy!!
don't let anyone get you down!
hugs,
Annabelle.