deep down chill

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Registered: 12-02-2007
deep down chill
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Sat, 12-27-2008 - 4:44am

I can't explain the way I'm feeling these days. Hollidays are almost over, and hell yeah I've accepted the fact that an ex is getting married tomorrow... but that's not the main reason why I'm feeling the way I feel.. is it plain nostalgia? God, I don't know.. But one thing for sure is that I'm not interested in getting into relationship right now...not even in the future I guess.. I thought I needed a nudge from someone who can start a fire between us (if you know what I mean)..but I'm simply not motivated.. I miss the old days when I relentlessly fallen in and out of love.. its silly I know but darn, it feels great at same time.. I turned into a bland, fearless and sly gal. I've been evasive when it comes to personal issues about relationships.. Honestly I hate the way I feel. But apparently I can't change it.

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Registered: 06-05-2008
Mon, 12-29-2008 - 1:34pm

Honestly I hate the way I feel. But apparently I can't change it.