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| Tue, 01-06-2009 - 10:52am |
Well I've been away a while and I'm sorry... but my computer crashed and I didn't get it fixed until recently, and it seems like I've been working non-stop lately. Oh well. Hope everyone is doing well! =)
My hot little german guy and I are hot and heavy... I'm very happy! He tells me he loves me and all the good stuff... we get along great, and he met my parents over the holidays!! lol I was soooo nervous! My mom says he looks at me like he really loves me... he wants me to come to Germany with him...
Only problem is I find myself unable to trust him completely. I think it's the fact that he's a helicopter pilot. All these people telling me that he can't be trusted because of that... drives me crazy. Every time I begin to trust him more and relax, it seems like something happens or someone says something to make me wonder.
He used my computer while I was still away to check his email and forgot to log off so now I have access to his email account. Which is bad, I think. When I first realized this I just sat there for a while trying to make myself log him off to get the temptation away... but I couldn't do it.
So I admit it. I snooped. I feel really bad about it. But it's got me wondering if he has someone else. I know he has women friends, which is fine. Hey I have guy friends, right? But this one woman is confusing me. She calls him "Buddy", yet she sends him a kiss at the end of emails...??? Says she misses him... ?? The last emails date to over a month ago, when him and I were still kind of rocky and just getting back to normal after he panicked about the whole relationship thing -- he thought he was getting too attached, he was leaving for Trinidad, didn't want to hurt me, we'd be better
| Wed, 01-07-2009 - 2:21pm |


