2 yrs is too soon 2 be over
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2 yrs is too soon 2 be over
| Wed, 03-22-2006 - 1:27pm |
My husband and I have only been married for two years. Last night i found some e-mails, he's been talking to another woman...and it's not the first time. The problem is everytime i confront him he denies it and says she's a friend from work, not one bone in my body can convince me that he's telling the truth. What really pisses me off is that one of the e-mails i found where it showed them talking was while we were both here at home together...i may have been bathing our daughter or feeding her and he was in the other room emailing/talking to her. He's done the same thing in the past while i was pregnant and denied it;well after he denied it he said he did it because i made him mad. My husband is in the Navy, i'm in a state where i have no friends and no family...i can't bring myself to even begin & understand why? why am i not enough for him? He's posted so many of his profiles on the interenet claiming he's single and looking for some fun...why does this man deny me? I'm very angry with myself, i've become this person....before him i thought i was alot stronger i wouldn't put up with any crap from any man. Now i feel i've become that very same person i used to judge for staying in such an unhealthy relationship. I shouldn't complain i know that there are other women who have it worse than i do....but a part of me feels the need to be selfish. I'm good to this man, i know i am. I know i deserve that respect. Yesterday, after reading his e-mails i felt as if i stuck my hands in a bucket of ice i felt the blood rush to my fingertips. I couldn't cry for the first time i couldn't bring myself to cry, i feel like i've had enough. He didn't speak a word to me after coming home from work the entire day went by without us speaking a word. I didn't beg him like i usually would to talk to me. This morning i woke up and i feel guilty like i did something wrong, like i'm i'm giving up too soon. But am i really? Am i giving up too soon on a relationship i know won't change?

"Am i giving up too soon on a relationship i know won't change?"
It's not giving up when you know it won't change. It's just accepting reality.