Am I being too picky?
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|Thu, 05-23-2013 - 6:52pm|
After many failed relationships, I've decided that I'm not settling anymore. Recently I met a really amazing man. We get along great and have so much fun together. He is really amazing in the sense that he is one of the most considerate men I've ever met. He is really handy and he will fix things on my car or around my house without me asking him. He is extremely generous in bed and we have amazing sex. He is always wanting to give me massages. We've talked about it and he just says he loves doing things for the woman he cares about and wants to be with and that he has and always will be like that.
As amazing as he is, I feel so hesitant. He is 35 and his job is a store manager at a drugstore, and he has 2 kids from a divorce. While I don't live a glamorous life, I do sometimes like the finer things and would prefer someone without any baggage. I'm 33 and I have a great job and love to go out. We live in a city where there's always something to do. I have a great balance on my social ilfe and my professional life and I'm not tied down by kids, even though I'd like to have them some day. I like doing fancy dinners and getting dolled up to drink $20 martinis, or going out to a prestigious club and being pretentious every once in a while...I just get the feeling he is not like that at all because A) he doesn't care about that kind of stuff, and B) he can't afford it. I feel shallow even thinking of these things as a negative, but like I said, I don't want to compromise anymore on what I want out of someone I might want to spend the rest of my life with, and I DO care about that kind of stuff...sometimes. At the same time, I really really really like him. I've never met anyone like him before and if his being so considerate and amazing is truly genuine, he's a definite keeper.
I just wonder if I will ever be able to get the full package...someone who is even half as amazing as he is and more like me and on my same page of life. Will I always have to compromise and just hope for the best? If I left him and started dating someone else, I know I will miss how amazing he was to me. I'm just torn because I know he wants a serious relationship, so I don't want to lead him on. While I can imagine being happy with him, I can't imagine introducing him to my friends or having him come to any group outings. He would think we were all pretentious idiots who only care about how big our condo is or how nice our cars are, which isn't true, but from his perspective, I can see that's what he would think because he is so the complete opposite.
It's like, I'm more NYC and he's more Wisconsin. That's what it's like. Could we really make it work?