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| Thu, 06-08-2006 - 11:27pm |
This is my first time posting here, I guess I just needed to talk to someone, I feel really depressed and alone. I'm not a very social person so I don't really have many friends to talk to and I'm beginning to learn the disadvantages of that when you need comforting, so I feel what I'm going through is hitting me harder then it would be if I had people telling me everythings going to be ok.
well, my boyfriend of almost 2years is all of a sudden not sure if he wants to be with me. After 2 pretty happy years of loving and caring and all of that stuff he feels this relationship isn't working out for him. We have a long distance relationship and for the most part its been going really well, we talk every day, for hours and we do see eachother occasionally, this distance has never been a problem, so I don't really know whats going on. I've grown attached to this guy, I fell inlove with him within days when I first met him, he was just so sweet. and over the two years I've known him, not only if he my boyfriend but I also see him as my best friend. He even asked me to marry him, but because of our traditions we were forced to wait by our parents, but we are pretty youn as well, him being 21 and I being 18, but theres no such thing as an ideal age to get married, when you love someone it just happens and i don't believe that age has anything to do with it. I feel like I'm going on but I'm just really hurt right now and not knowing what to do. I feel like just getting up and totally leaving and just starting out new somewhere else and leaving everything behind so i wouldn't have to deal with him or have anything left to remind me of him but i don't really know how realistic that is, i really wish i could right about now though.
well, my boyfriend of almost 2years is all of a sudden not sure if he wants to be with me. After 2 pretty happy years of loving and caring and all of that stuff he feels this relationship isn't working out for him. We have a long distance relationship and for the most part its been going really well, we talk every day, for hours and we do see eachother occasionally, this distance has never been a problem, so I don't really know whats going on. I've grown attached to this guy, I fell inlove with him within days when I first met him, he was just so sweet. and over the two years I've known him, not only if he my boyfriend but I also see him as my best friend. He even asked me to marry him, but because of our traditions we were forced to wait by our parents, but we are pretty youn as well, him being 21 and I being 18, but theres no such thing as an ideal age to get married, when you love someone it just happens and i don't believe that age has anything to do with it. I feel like I'm going on but I'm just really hurt right now and not knowing what to do. I feel like just getting up and totally leaving and just starting out new somewhere else and leaving everything behind so i wouldn't have to deal with him or have anything left to remind me of him but i don't really know how realistic that is, i really wish i could right about now though.

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I also wanted to say that I used to be painfully shy especially in Junior High and Highschool. In college I started meeting a few more friends but was still shy. I guess the older I get and the more confident I become the less shy I become. I wouldn't say that I'm an extrovert and that I can chat anyone up at this point and I probably never will be but I consider myself to be a pretty social person and I do like being around friends and doing things a lot. I think being more social and going out more often has given me a lot of the new found confidence that I have now. I will never be an extrovert but I know now that I will always be ok in new social situations even if I feel a little uncomfortable at first when I dont' know anyone. I think sometimes coming out of your shell just a little helps. But like you were saying idm, it's just not you and I know it's not so that's cool too, everyone is totally different. Being social helps some and not others and for me it helped even though I didn't think it could and I used to hate going out and talking to people.
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