in love with co-worker
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| Sat, 11-19-2005 - 12:11am |
This isn't a call for help or advice, I just need to vent a bit.
Basically, I'm in love with my co-worker. He has a girlfriend, so that's that. But it's been so very hard for the past few months.
When I first met him I had no initial attraction. It wasn't until a few months had passed and we'd been talking more at work. We both have the same taste in music and very similar sense of humour. One day I caught him looking at me and was like "oh great, he has a crush on me" and just was careful around him so as not to flirt with him. BUt then a few weeks later he came into my personal space a bit and we made eye contact and POOF, i felt something.
We've become friends and talk all the time. I know his girlfriend now and we've all hung out. THe other night I was at their place and he was staring at me throughout the whole night. I'm not sure if his girlfriend has noticed this, but she has been a bit standoffish towards me.
So there it is. I'm feeling things for this guy, things I haven't felt in a long time (recently got out of a 4 year relationship and i never felt about my bf the way i feel about this guy right now).
I'm trying to find things I don't like about him, just to ease this pain. So far there's a few things. He drinks too much and um, well, i'm finding things. It's interesting though, on days where I ignore him or don't say hello first, i find he stares at me more and comes to talk to me more. So the ruder I am, the more he pays attention to me. As opposed to when i talk to him more often than i should, where i find he doesn't look at me when i speak. It's like if i act like I don't like him, he starts to find ways to talk to me.
I think the sooner i can get over him the better- maybe then i will find someone available!
