MAJOR interference in our rship.......
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|Tue, 03-30-2010 - 2:46pm|
my bf has a major kidney problem.
we've been together for over 3 years, but recently, as strong as i've been for him, as supportive as i have been with him, as hopeful as i am of building that future together with him that he had envisioned for us before he got the news he needs to be hospitalized, and as much as i really love him, the problems we've been thru together are taking a major toll on me... and on him completely.
i'm not a healthy person either. i have a chronic disease as well, but mine comes and goes, and i know how to control and handle my own problems without it interfering with my life. thus, in this way, we both are understanding each other. but, bc my bf has had to deal with so many changes in his life in only the span of 2 years, he's been feeling negative, hopeless, undeserving of me, depressed, and everything that comes with health problems.
like i said above, as much as i love him and help him along the way, the rest is on him. only he knows when he can feel better. i tell him the extra worry he puts on himself adds extra stress to his body, and its not good.
i just need major help here pls. i'm so bothered by all that's happened so far, i'm so annoyed he's always so negative, i'm so confused that even tho he's the greatest guy in the world in terms of loving me, i tend to feel like he's not the best for me right now in my life, and is it time for me to be selfish for once? i don't know! i can't ever leave him when he needs me the most!
i just don't know what to do about anything anymore, bc we've been thru so much and done so much already, that now i feel just as bad as he does. and i HATE it. i need to DO something! i need help. i need help to help my boyfriend...
(i wish he'd be more assertive and opportunistic about his life already. we may act the same sometimes and have the same goals in life, but our OUTLOOK on life is completely opposite, and it annoys me. i want to help him see his life differently and try and do better and be busier in his life so he won't feel bad. yknow? but as much as he heeds my advice and tries, he resorts to negativity and pessimism again.)
well, thanks for reading and replying...
Edited 3/30/2010 2:49 pm ET by emilyn85