Missed that good time with him...
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|Tue, 11-19-2013 - 10:16pm|
This year has been a very hurtful one for myself BUT through all of it,I was reminded of a good time spent with someone in my life through that terrible time between 2009-2013...although 2013 hopefully is the end of my sadness...BUT in 2011...I actually was blessed to meet this man who ended up being my bf if only for a little over 1 month.He was in town due to his job.He actually lived in the next state.Anyways I actually met him while I was at my club I always go to.I feel that would have been 'the one' for me IF he had lived in my city. I spent basically 3 weeks with this guy going all over the place. We had talked about the people who had made us feel like crap...I opened myself to him emotionally and although he lived out of state...we decided to try the LDR thing...well once he went back home it ended later.But yesterday I decided to just say hello to him and we ended up talking about the good memories that we had the time he was hear. I told him that if he ever is back in town....to visit me.
The thing is, I feel that I actually met the person that is right for me.It's hard to explain but I can only say that he acted the way I have been looking for a man to act towards me.He respected me, he made me feel very special.Through all the time he was here, I as usual was going through alot of ups and downs with jobs.I felt embarrassed.Also for the 1st time since that fiasco with the exfwb thing and me still pining over that...this man actually came into my life and I NEVER thought about the other person that whole time! I mean I wasn't pining for that other person. I actually was falling for this new guy.I wonder if I will ever find someone like that again who will come into my life...anyways so yesterday he sent me 2 pics of us together and it really brought back very good memories and I will for ever be thankful that I met him when I did...only now I"m wondering if he's still in a relationship.Awhile back when I had FB...I had looked him up a few times and I saw that he was with someone. So last night during our back and forth e-mails I did ask him..so what have you been up to? Maybe hoping that he will divulge that little piece of info...I don't know.Maybe it's wishful thinking.I tell you...if I could get a chance again with him...I would take it..but most people don't like LDR because you dont get to see the other person that much.PLUS I too like having someone to cuddle with basically everynight....Has anyone ever met someone in their life that really put a huge smile on your face?