Still love my ex...2 yrs later
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|Wed, 02-03-2010 - 12:36pm|
Hey all, it's been a while since I've written on a board.
I'm not quite sure I'm writing on the right subject, but here it is. I've post the same post on the board "Should I stay or Should I go".
I left my ex 2 years ago because I was struggling between my heart and my mind . Heart was saying stay but head was saying go. I was with him for over 5 years and loved him deeply and him too. Yes we had our issues and I always questionned our love, I felt at a point like I wasn't growing, as a person, a woman, in the relationship. And things that were supposed to improve seem just to stay at the same level.
See, I needed an out. We kept leaving each other and come back within a week. But 2 years ago, I said it was enough. Enough doubting and being anxious and broke up for real. The problem is, after 2-3 months I met another man, told him I wasn't ready to jump into something new and still did.
I never stopped comparing my current one to the old one. My ex put the bar way up high and I discovered that I took alot for granted. I never stopped loving him and thinking about him. Even my friends keep telling me I need to stop.
Sometimes I'm seating in front of my current one but thinkng about my ex. Once I even dialed my ex's number without even realizing it.
I've broke up with the current one but came back, but I still struggle. It seems like I'm just settling, when before I was truly happy.
I've come to the point where I need to see my ex because I think about him everyday now.