Update on "He Still Thinks We're 16"
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| Fri, 08-05-2005 - 1:28pm |
First I just wanted to say thank you to those who gave me advice b/c it did help me a lot.
My current situation with him is that he's seriously realizing the truth about himself. What he can do, shouldn't do, and should do. He said it himself that he feels like if he's just starting to live. I went away on vacation for a few days. I had told him some things that had been bothering me and kind of left him there to think about it all. I came back and now he really wants to work it out between us. I'm taking my time on this situation b/c I don't want to make a false move.
In the past I knew that I was his first everything but not until now do I realize what an impression our past relationship had made on him. I guess it happens to anyone. Their first real love forms them into who they are. I know now that many of the choices I made back then caused him to have a bad reaction. His trying to forget me made him go into a pattern of lying. It seems as though he didn't trust me thois whole time and that's why he's been distant. I've tried to make him see otherwise and I think I finally have. Sometimes I wish that I could have known then what I know now but that's what life teaches you. Everything happens for a reason.
Another thing, I've gotten into Astrology a lot lately. It's so strange how the sun and moon can relate to who we are. I bought a book on sun and moon signs. I've compared what it says in there to almost everyone that I know and it explains so much about each person. Especially about Ryan and me. We have a similarity when it comes to how we use our hearts but a difference in how we use our logic. It's kind of funny b/c we both know we love each other and we are both very passionate about it, but when we want to prove a point on something we try to make each other mad about it. It ends up making us want each other even more. I can really relate to that movie The Notebook. We drive each other crazy but we're crazy for each other.
Well I just wanted to let you guys know what was going in my situation. Thanx.
Steph
