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Fri, 04-15-2005 - 1:48pm

Well, I am trying to pass time and look busy and decided to go ahead and update everyone where I am at in this dating world. Well, Patrick and I have just been going with the motions so to speak. With our work schedules and no spring sports we barely see each other. Actually I saw him the first time last night in 3 weeks and that barely happened because I did not get to house till 9 pm and I had to work. So spending time together wasn't much but cuddling on the couch and then to bed after catching up.


I realized last night as a definite that I will soon have to break it off. I have tried the childish game of convincing him it will not work so he can break it off and it is not working. I did not want to be the bad guy but I have to do what is right for me. But, last night I talked to my ex (the guy who I loved but moved to NC) he needed me to do a favor for him which was fine. No flirting just normal conversation with getting things together for me to do the favor.


Ok, get to Patrick's house and we are talking about future plans and I talk of shopping. Spring is here and I want a new wardrobe. So this not being the first time he has mentioned something about me dieting or needing to lose weight. So I am ticked but do not bring it up because we have been over this before. I am happy and healthy at my size and many men love it. I am the same when he first met me and he had a choice then to decide if this was something he was happy with. He showed me pics. of his exes and all were bigger then I am. So I do not know the deal there and he is not small. I mean this man eats all night and a big thing I hate is eating in bed. I do not like crumbs in my bed. Why we only stay at his house when one stays a night. Ok enough of that, well I started thinking of the ex. He will be here after April 25 and I know I will be seeing him which I am getting excited. I know he is still single and even for one night or how many nights he is in town I am going to be with him or want to rather.


Patrick pissed me off or just being with him I don't even care about that all I could do was think of the possibilities with the ex if I wasn't chicken to move. I am now stuck with having to tell Patrick. How do I go about that? I could tell while I was with him he was so happy but on so many levels with him I am not. I have never had to be the bad guy and do the dumping. The guy has always been able to read the signs and do it for me. I guess I needed to get this down to sort it. Because I know the ex and I will not have anything but a one nighter and unless he moves back to KC which or doubt or to Texas which I am considering a place to live now since my sons father now lives there. Then we will just be friends. but, I know deep down I have to do something with Patrick.


If you made it this far thanks. Questions comments are welcome if you can understand all the rambling.

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Registered: 03-19-2003
In reply to: cl_bastphilliy
Fri, 04-15-2005 - 4:43pm
I am over the ex, he just popped up yesterday and brought it all back. And, maybe wantted to use him as an excuse. But, will let you all know next week how and what happened. I plan to tell him tonight if not for sure some time this weekend.
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