What do you think or what would you do?

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What do you think or what would you do?
Wed, 11-30-2005 - 6:11pm

This is going to be a REALLY long story so bear with me. It starts back in my freshmen year of highschool with a Sr. named Tom. He asked to take me to a basketball game and I went with him. We had fun and we were friends for the remainder of the year. He would call me and I would do the same, he got me to join track and pole vault, and we were always teasing each other and pranking each other whenever we got the chance. Toward the end of the year a Soph. asked me if I was going to go to prom with him and I told her no we were just friends and she said "really I heard that you guys were dating." Now we have to keep in mind that I was a silly little freshmen girl and I had had a crush on him this whole time, but I KNEW that he didn't have one on me he was one of the more popular guys and there was no way that he wanted to be with me! The school year ended and we didn't talk the whole summer. Then one day in August, right before he was getting ready to leave for school, he just shows up at my house totally unexpected, to tell my bye.

Okay now we are in my Sophomore year of highschool, Tom was away at school and I was starting to realize that I liked other guys beside him. I started dating my boyfriend of 2 years ,Dan, in October of my Soph. year and right about this time guess who decided he should start calling me, that's right Tom. So now I once again I was starting to feel like a silly little girl with a Crush, but I still knew that he didn't like me. Tom quit calling me, but started to call me again in December. This is when it gets bad. Tom decided that he was ready to tell me how he felt about me this time. He told me that he had liked me since my freshmen year and that he loved me and everything, keep in mind I am dating dan during this time, and once he tells me this I tell him that it has been the same for me, so I continue to talk to him, but keep it from dan, until about March. I told Tom to just wait until March b/c wrestling season would be over and I could talk to dan about it. ( Dan went to state that year and I didn't want to ruin it for him)My mom and dad told me that I couldn't date tom b/c he was 3 years older than me, but I told tom not to worry we would make it work some how. So I broke up with dan to be with tom, but once again Tom quit calling me. Dan and I got back together within a month and have been together sice, and I never heard or really even saw tom.

Also Tom and I NEVER kissed or did anything like that we would just flirt and have fun.

Now I am a Senior in highschool and I was finally over Tom even though he was my first real crush, b/c I have dan and he is the greatest guy that I could ask for he does the absolute most sweetest things for me. And not just little sweet things, he has done things that take a ton of time to plan. He just gets along with my family so well and I do his, but we still have our differences everyonce in awhile. Just when I thought that Tom was out of my life I was wrong. Last week he saw one of my friends and started asking about me and told her that he needed to see me and that he still liked me soo much and that I was the most beautiful girl that he had ever known.He also told her that when I "divorced" Dan he was going to marry me! (you proably think that he was wasted when he said this, but trust me he wasn't it was) At first I just wanted to tell him off and tell him to get out my life. But that silly little girl feeling started to come back again. So I finally called him, this time dan knew, and he didn't really talk to me then, so I went to his house , again dan knew, and we just talked about everything and the whole time I had that feeling and I don't even know how to describe it, but we deciced that we would be friends and keep in better touch this time. I asked him why me, out of all the girls that he knows why did he want to see me so bad two years later, he told me that I was beautiful both inside and out. I know that really I have a pretty good situation right now.

I Love Dan with all of my heart and we have shared so much and I really don't know what I would do without him and I can totally see us together forever I can see us taking dance lessons and working out together and just always being there for each other and when I think of not being with dan it makes me soo sad and almost sick to my stomach. But on the other had I just can't shake Tom, I mean even though he didn't talk to me for two years I still thought about him and what it would've been like and if he ever thought about me and everytime I see him I still get that silly feeling.