bittersweet weekend

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Registered: 05-23-2006
bittersweet weekend
Sun, 06-11-2006 - 10:11pm

I had one of the best weekends I've had in a LONG LONG time. I met with someone who had contacted me from Match.com. He actually made a trip into town by train to visit me. I was really nervous at first 'cause what if we didn't meet each other's expectations of each other and he already spent money on a hotel room & train tickets. (Though we had spoken on the phone about two weeks prior to meeting and there was definitely a "spark".)

*Sigh*....I haven't felt this way in a long long time - to connect with someone on so many levels, intellectually, emotionally, physically, and be so comfortable with that other person from the start. My last two "relationships" haven't been all that rewarding intellectually and emotionally, so it felt so SO nice to be with someone who gave me that. He was so caring, funny, smart, laid back and handsome.

And now he's gone and it's so bittersweet! I literally had to hold back the tears on the way back home (How pathetic is that? I only just met the guy! How can I possibly feel for someone I only just met?) He said he's coming into town next weekend to visit his sister who lives 30 minutes away from the city centre, but what happens after that? Not to mention we're both in completely different stages of our lives. We're 12 years apart. Is it possible for two people so far apart in age to actually have something that could last?

Cupid works in strange ways. There is always some circumstance which prevents the both of you from being together.

In a small way, I wish I never replied to his email then I wouldn't be stuck in such a predicament. :*(